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| I always used it before I had a cleaner, and then they decided whether to use it or not themselves. The small stuff I can do in between visits is quicker in the sink but does mean the rest builds up. After a month now it's not a pretty sight... I'll be going south from my father's house so cuts out the north bit, but it's about 60 miles from there at the most, I've been in the area a few times recently but not that far in that direction. |
Reply #1081. Aug 25 12, 9:07 AM
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I had to have a break today, I've done everything else on the list, The Cotswolds on Tuesday, finishing the photo map square on Wednesday, and another one in the centre of London yesterday. It's another birthday thing tomorrow, this time I think 93 in an old people's home, and clear beyond. The new idea of making my research into a TV programme has begun, people are making enquiries for me and as far as I'm concerned the material can stand on its own merits. I checked the camera site (next day delivery one) and my camera (9 days ago) is on 'back order', ie they haven't got any. That's British business for you. I ordered a cassette from Tesco online once and they let me know a few months later they didn't have it. I see something similar here, the only reason I ordered it online was the only shop who sell it only had it in black and I preferred red, and maybe when they find the red are only on sale in Japan and sold out of the black ones the other shop (I've already checked actually) appear to have none either this week. Otherwise I will set Lesley on to them (what's your standard fee?).
Hopefully Sussex will materialise next week, but getting 300 1km squares on the map is a pretty decent achievement, and not sure if anyone else there has done it. Many have in other places mind you but as the distance covered is the same anywhere it's probably pretty similar except for those without road access (3 for me from memory, and it was raining). But as after waiting a few weeks I did my longest trip there shouldn't be any trouble doing the other one before the end of next month.
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Reply #1082. Aug 26 12, 3:35 PM
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That's the worst of British business for you, the company that is scared to lay money out on stock till someone says they want it. I temped for a light engineering company in Alperton about 30 years ago. It was installing a stock control system. This seems to me to be the last desperate thrash of a company before it finally goes down the tubes. Customers were waiting days, weeks, even months for things they presumably couldn't get anywhere else, but how long can you carry on telling people the lead time for a crimping tool is six months? It folded not long after I finished there.
If it's a good assignment, I'll do it for free!
Reply #1083. Aug 26 12, 4:36 PM
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It never fails to surprise me when the same stuff all happens in one go. Now at the moment in reality I am free, and had a nice time at the old age home yesterday and met who I hope will be a new friend. It did turn out she works for someone I know, and hope my reputation isn't destroyed before she decides to call me as my paranoia does extend to character assassination by people who may be nicer to me in person than after I've gone. I don't think this about everyone, but just a few who may be capable of trying to put people off me. I will have to see now but after an afternoon of getting on well only found out at the end and really wonder how something can end up as Marx said possibly carrying the seeds of its own destruction.
Otherwise this phase has begun with a flurry of unwelcome invitations. That's been some time since that happened, I had a run of reasonable ones ending yesterday, and thank goodness all manageable. Now with my claustrophobia the places I can handle is a short list, a quarter the original length as one by one each pub or cafe closes and left with a reduction plus one which has opened recently where an office was (and a Garfunkel's before that which I did go to) but have this bloody routine where I have to explain to each new person where and why I can manage and hope they don't think I'm a nutjob. I suppose if you ask people if they want to go for coffee in a sewage farm or slaughterhouse they wouldn't like it either, and that's what many places are like for me so only a matter of degree.
So after high hopes I am now prepared for spanners in works, but then again may be operating to provide me with a little more trust if it ends up going well. I've thought of more photos to take tomorrow to avoid the congestion charge, and clearly the camera shop has simply advertised (for next day delivery no less) items they have decided to offer but only on condition people want them, and as the only one in Britain to offer the red one (Argos meanwhile seem to have vanished the black one from their site depriving me of any alternative chance to get one if it goes tits up) may well be clutching at straws by creating a British market for something quite possibly not available outside the continent, and even our continent at all. I have arranged to take Grace along with me when it arrives to test it out, but at this rate it'll either be dark at 4 or never happen.
I don't want any raised or false hopes only to be dashed though, and what seems special on first view may end up never materialising and as such can't trust or rely on a single possibility until it's already happened. Normally such a meeting would hold a high percentage of success (unlike buying a house or having a job interview) but when flies appear in the ointment from apparently nowhere (unless as more and more others are starting to agree it's planned by outside forces for a good reason) you go back to the null position. I may be cynical but better safe than sorry. It's better to try and avoid piles in the street that don't exist yet than not expect them and then tread in one. It's called survival. |
Reply #1084. Aug 28 12, 2:11 PM
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The new camera arrived today, and took it into The City after the 6pm charging period closed, as it'll soon be too dark to take them and would have to wait for weekends. It seemed to perform nicely, and certainly nothing that looked underwater as some have before, although it bends vertical lines no less than the compact.
Logically unless our mutual friend/employer runs me down big time (big karmic blot) there's no reason this new woman wouldn't contact me, and certainly one of the lowest levels a person can go to is try and put someone off a friend unless they've committed a relevant crime and need to know. As I have no such criminal record doing so otherwise is like stabbing someone in the back, I may be paranoid but the chances of meeting someone new who just happens to know someone already is more like a TV soap than real life, except they are based on real life.
If I'm not working tomorrow it's off to clean the family tombstone, someone has to do it and that's me or my mother so not really in question. I'll take the new camera and cover some more new ground as the area west of the cemetery is unvisited, I can't be bothered to ask Grace at such short notice, there will be other places for that next week, and then see what else turns up. The cleaner returned after over a month and the house now looks reasonable again, I had to go out half way through and wonder where some of the washing and rubbish on the floor has gone to, as I usually tell her what goes where and probably the worst scenario is if the rubbish has been stowed away somewhere in my bedroom and the washing put away in drawers.
So the next 24 hours are covered at least, whether anything better will occur on top remains to be seen, but there is a chance for a change as the possibility is known. |
Reply #1085. Aug 29 12, 6:47 PM
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I have certainly learnt one thing today, you don't bother to try and get lichen of a marble tombstone. Looking at the dates it takes 30 years for a white stone to turn black, and after 14 really have to let nature take its course, otherwise you need a professional cleaner for eternity to use power jets and brushes to hold back the otherwise inevitable. On the way back I took a new road to test the new camera, covering a little extra ground on the map, and then bought the monopod required to keep the camera still using the massive zoom, and tested that successfully in Golders Green after a period where it wouldn't focus. I was expecting someone to come over today but as she changed her mind I got everything else done I probably couldn't have squeezed in tomorrow when only half the day was free.
Needless to say I haven't heard from the new friend (?) I met on Monday, now had she not known someone with the very slight potential to dismantle the good work I'd not have thought about the timescale as no reason not to contact me, now it seems a spanner or other tool has been introduced to the works and I am on a state of orange alert. Brown alert I suppose would be the one above red (if not then it should be), but as my criminal record does not exist then it can't get that serious...
It is all lessons to sort out existing issues, such as patience, paranoia and who only knows what else. This would mean each element was introduced exactly to create the experience required, which is fine as long as it ends well otherwise all I'd have learnt is to no longer trust anything. My final long trip has maybe a month maximum left, so far either I've been busy when over that way (weekends basically) or worn out from being busy. If you don't have the energy you don't drive over 100 miles. I can managed without it for now, I completed all other missions of far greater distance, this is just the final corner which can be extended noticeably.
So now I can only hand myself over to fate, there's sod all else I can do and will now do as I learnt and forget it unless anything happens, you have nothing until something comes along. |
Reply #1086. Aug 30 12, 2:33 PM
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In films (and life sometimes) there can be two threads going on, your normal mundane everyday life and some miraculous event all the viewers know is about to happen except you. Not that it has, but occasionally you get a beginning of a possibility, and the Buddhist/logical rule is you only have what you have, and if any more comes enjoy it until it goes. That is the nature of life so you may as well keep up with it. Now it's been almost a week since I passed my details on to this person (at least she's unlikely to ever read this, what happens when they do I wonder?) and as far as I'm concerned there's absolutely no reason why she shouldn't, besides what is apparently an essential part of the equation she knows someone I do and am therefore reliant on being given a good report. Now I never take any notice of what anyone says about other people to make my decisions as everyone likes different things and thank goodness what one may find strange others appreciate. I could never be put of someone whatever someone tells me as it's only their personal opinion.
Anyway, I'm simply happy I've met someone who has so much to offer, as not many people get the same things I do and she has learnt as much in her time (quite possibly more) as I have in twice as long. And that also means she ought to know more than allow gossip to spoil anything and use her own judgement, so maybe a lesson for her as well. Otherwise I'd have expected to hear from her 100% even if not for twice as long. It's a long shot dirt has been thrown but unfortunately by my time of life you trust no one you can't rely on totally.
Otherwise summer is ending, the heating went on yesterday and promptly went off, after spending nearly £300 on a new circuit board. He'll be back on Tuesday and so far is covered by the guarantee (as it damn well should be). Just the one (optional) long trip left, otherwise I can go into winter mode and potter around locally, and get the gardening and housework done that won't do itself when I'm on the road. I've been busier socially this year than for ages, and all easy local things and not the sort of demands that have me heading for the bottle (of tablets). So far none till now have led to getting to know anyone I'd keep in touch with, all passing acquaintances, but this new one is quite different and how often does that happen?
So, I carry on as if nothing's going to happen, which is the way of the Buddha, but the ego (always present till enlightened) has another view and keeps coming in and complaining. At least I am aware of the position and can't do much more than know and observe, little spiritual works directly, you can only watch and know. Changing things directly is rarely possible, that's why they call it grace (and not my one this time). I'll take her on a photo trip next week anyway, and although many people don't have any safety net at all that's a pretty small one for me... |
Reply #1087. Aug 31 12, 6:43 PM
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While nothing much is happening the media have managed to pick up the Arctic ice melt and use it to demonstrate all doubts about global warming have been removed. The fact local weather conditions among fast changing phenomena (ie sea ice melting and freezing) along with similar melts going back centuries can be found in moments of checking makes it irrelevent hasn't stopped it being hawked around at the highest levels. Of course using short term changes as evidence is what they tell everyone not to do when it's cold (I don't) and it actually applies to both ends of the spectrum. The fact they are happy to use short term changes when they already warn against in shows that's all they've got- the study by three Norwegian universities this week showing CO2 is released by the ocean as it warms up has been as widely ignored by the media as the melting ice (short term) has been broadcast. Bias? Never!
Meanwhile outside the dirty world of politics (can I say that word any more?), nothing's happened. Normally that would be, well, normal, but when you're hoping a woman will get in touch it's a bit less than that, although technically it is more normal than when they don't. Mind you, the climate is meant to be something connected with scientific observation only, so I think I've escaped on that one, it can't be politics instead. Otherwise it's just keep going and see what happens. Apart from road signs turning up pretty well everything (as you'd expect really) this year has been by my own efforts. The news has worked on the usual 'inertia principle' ie things carry on the same (or get worse), while the usual toss-up of good results has landed tails since my last TV programme interview where it was between me and one other person. I'm not complaining, just reporting, and however nice it is to know there's someone else around who sees life the way I do it would be a lot nicer to keep seeing her, they're rare enough within visiting distance, which is why I spend so long on the internet.
It's just business as usual, and probably lessons rather than tests as tests are confrontational, and lessons are constructive. I would very much like to learn what to do outside the direct range of what is directly around me, and if you look back on your own lives then you'll probably see apart from being a student where you have a strict effort in-result relationship, most other things were not really in your control. You made starts- job/partner applications, producing things to sell etc, and the direction was then taken by others. You don't know what will be popular or successful, and I think if you just follow your heart and do what feels good at the time then anything else happening will happen or not, that's how it works. |
Reply #1088. Sep 01 12, 5:11 PM
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Interesting, or is it? I have realised the energy I have for travel each day is part of directing me to get certain things done as well, and as a result still got all my official ones done before the end of summer, and the last one really is just a bonus when I finally get round to it. Then there won't be anywhere further without doing over 80 miles and maybe next year I'll do just one as the map squares lie at that point and would score another big one.
Otherwise I must trust whatever system there is and believe this woman is stronger than any gossip she may hear and can't actually think of a single other reason she wouldn't have got in touch- she may not even have asked my friend about me (and would she be a friend if she screwed things up for me?). Should I get up in time (as it gets dark an hour earlier than it did) and feel like it I could go tomorrow, and otherwise will definitely be doing other things as I'm not doing the others till next year if I do.
One thing we had both experienced was the comedown/anticlimax when you make a spiritual breakthrough and then life seems exactly the same so after a day or two all recollection seems like a dream and appears to have no effect on anything. Now I can add meeting her to it as that is so far the biggest event for me for some time, and especially with the connection to a mutual person can't just be random, little if anything is now. She told me all this was happening to her before I even said a word so clearly (if you've read The Celestine Prophecy) is starting to take people over to the next state of evolution. Imagine where everything is not outside you but like in a dream within your consciousness. The great teachers have always said this, and enlightenment is when you become aware of it, much like realising you're actually dreaming. That alone won't wake you up but you then realise you can fly, walk through walls and anything else they did in The Matrix. Then with everything connected to both itself and you, imagine the power- telepathy wouldn't be impossible as you were only recalling information from part of yourself. Of course we can do this now, I do it a lot but only when it turns itself on fully, but instead it would become the default position.
I certainly haven't picked up why I haven't heard from her either, as I say, I haven't crossed that line myself, but every element is part of the plan including what we aren't shown but often find out after the event. Spoilers I'd guess. The plateau effect is when we lose what we thought we had, so if I never hear from her I will do what I can not to let the memory go, as whatever happened I still met her and for many people meeting a great person once is never forgotten, I rest my case, and my backside as well. |
Reply #1089. Sep 02 12, 5:13 PM
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Of course you can say that word! (And just did. :D )
Why do you have to wait for her - is there something stopping you contacting her?
Reply #1090. Sep 02 12, 6:04 PM
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The only reason I couldn't contact her was I gave her all my details (she preferred the email to the phone but only after I gave her the phone already), didn't offer hers and thought we'd got on well enough to expect a call. You can never live long enough, even immortal, for people to fail to disappoint you. Not that she won't ever, but each day that passes etc... I can contact her if I want as I know a few ways, and will do eventually, but knocking on a clearly locked door is like going back for more of the same, it reminded me of trying to get in touch with a mother after being adopted.
The great risk blogging is separating the readers, we had this conversation years ago I think on the old ones, but besides changing names if you read an account of your life you'd know even if others didn't. Totally legal or newspapers wouldn't exist, but not everyone likes being discussed online despite it purely being a written version of half the conversations on earth (minimum). What's more interesting than talking about the people we know? Facebook caught me out, the first site people I know use, as one person at least has agreed with me to avoid politics for 35 years as we knew our views then and were happy to leave each to them. Now he pops up and tuts sometimes as if he didn't remember I used to support Mrs Thatcher, although purely as the bleach to wipe out the Labour mess rather than her general policies. Once she had done that she went wild and I joined the other lot (not Labour, there were others), until certain of their leaders filled the gap on the left since Blair shifted Labour away, which is not actually the remit of a centre party, so I had to leave.
Anyway, the good news is I spent 5 hours driving to Battle yesterday, and was so tired as the roads after the M25 didn't exceed 50 mph for a mile or so at a time and less on the rest, as I was hoping to carry on to Hastings, but another 7 or so miles, doubling to 14, was pushing me over the edge, and actually found on return I'd only gone 12 miles past my last trip that way. The road sign I needed had had the numbers peeled off, leaving a negative where the dirt hadn't reached the backing, just like a road junction one near Cambridge. And it had a red triangle for the children sign below it rather than the required circle (as on a private road) so only just an addition to the collection to the 'damaged' list (there is a joke there but even I can draw the line occasionally).
The new camera is wonderful, making sharp edges and blue skies most of the time, the faults being manual semi auto focus (ie no control but can't leave it to do the work) and it slants verticals which is pretty much like saying 'Macbeth' in a dressing room or bringing ham to a barmitzvah. And that's on a large digital screen, I will submit a sample to a photo forum and see if they can suggest a tweak. I spent most of today adding them online and just finished (don't look at the time), but nothing on tomorrow. The boilerman returned today, and found what I assumed was the fault hiding behind the fault he fixed, after a little direction from me as to its behaviour as a result of it. It was fixed and covered by the previous work thank goodness, and should now have a warm winter. If it works it won't need a service for another year anyway now.
So my map is full for 2012, and if I feel like it next spring would bag another 100km square which is at least 70 miles as the crow flies in any direction. There are methods to get two as the nodes touch so if you aim for one can do it that way, west is too far off the main road but north is a small detour west just before (cough) Peterborough. That's a fun ride I remember, but would prefer a luxury car (one with a boot and engine over 1300cc that is) as it does make a difference on a long run. But till then it's now whatever I like as the coast stops me going any further where the routes would be easier. The house and garden will now benefit, and whatever else I do when I'm here on the creative side. Although it's the exception (slightly above women asking men out) apart from other people finding road signs for me I haven't really achieved anything I can remember this year beyond my own work. Nothing else has really changed or happened to help, the news has been dire- apart from a new law making squatting a crime (as if it just occured to people having other people take your house over and stopping you living there, using the gas and electricity and not paying any tax) and anyone else I know's decisions have pretty much not been in ways I'd benefit from either. Of course when for instance a friend moves abroad it isn't personal, but then again neither would it be if they chose to come back, but I'd benefit. People don't do things to pee us off much, they do what they have to and we are caught in the crossfire as collateral damage. Maybe I should use that as a screen name, as from the day my mother left us to the day my friend left Britain probably for good I have had the roll of paper to wipe up after them. Thank god the most important decisions have been good, ie my exams, and then the successful TV work, but outside the business area which I've always had covered pretty well, the personal side has been scraps. Besides my good friends who have now dwindled as described in great detail long ago, the women have been worse than anyone could ever have written in a novel. Whatever could go wrong did, almost without an exception, hence my long history of being single, and each new attempt following the same end regardless of the means- mental illness, emigration, parent pressure, ex boyfriends, you name it and many more ways I couldn't have thought up beforehand it's gone wrong. I'm even going to the wedding of the one who left me the second her ex found out I'd caught her on the rebound in 1993. I'd possibly have been married to her nearly 20 years and had children otherwise, instead of a series of cats. Not that I couldn't have had them both.
So this woman (see how smoothly I got back on track there?) appears to fit the same pattern I've had since the day I dumped my first girlfriend as she was boring (she was) and changed my mind the day after but she didn't want to know. I've been punished for that ever since, and even accepted boring women at 30 (I planned to drop faults from the list every decade), but can't yet accept dim ones. As I learnt long ago you need something to talk about afterwards (you know), it's the second most important thing (at least I'm honest in admitting it) to me, and may drop that requirement at 60 if no one else has arrived. The routine so far has been each decade when I drop a deal breaker from the list those women are no longer interested in me instead. The formula has been better than any scientific one besides putting vinegar in baking soda. It is infinitely repeatable and have as yet found no way to interrupt its constant action. If I have enough money I'll ask CERN to create one for me now they've found the Higgs Boson and have to find something else to use it for. Publishing one of my articles would be nice as well. Stranger things have happened. |
Reply #1091. Sep 04 12, 10:14 PM
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With my little anxiety problems then the largest cause is either forced or expected arrangements. So although all the summer plans are now complete and I can't just not feel guilty pottering around locally but don't actually have anywhere else to go those bullets not just keep coming, but as usual come in bunches. They vary in degrees, and none are above tolerable, the worst easily being a wedding invitation, something many enjoy but more don't as last time I mentioned it and got a long list of others who prefer not to be herded into a room like cattle and wait for people to complete a performance usually of little or no interest to anyone except the happy couple in a place and time of no choice by yourself. This is in a decent place, and a marginal time I should just manage, and knowing my friend will be to, well, careful, to have a big do afterwards, maybe no do at all (he didn't mention one and I will be very happy if that's as there isn't one), if in the same place and time I will manage (I used to go to the social club there in the 70s) and the wedding doesn't last long itself, but that'll be over 10 years since the last one and my nerves tend to wear with age like the insulation on wiring.
The other arrangements are relatively easy, the eye test isn't a worry but seeing if two aneurysms have become more, fewer or the same after the first discovery last year is rather a milestone. Obviously had they burst I'd have known about it, and the doctor wasn't bothered so now just a question of their stability. The woman from last week appears not to want to see me after all (odd as she was pretty much a soul mate, and that doesn't often happen), I'll poke her (on Facebook, what were you thinking?) in a few weeks as I won't lie down and die on this one, and then if I get the same treatment 75% of people from school and college have given me then it's pretty much dead, although it's a good reason do arrive on my friend's doorstep who employs her and see if I can dig up any reason (including any guilty body language on her part were I capable of reading it).
So the same soap opera goes on, as the guru told me in the 90s, it's a dream and when I wake up I'll know the bullets and knives can't hurt me in the same way. Grace wanted to see me last night, and maybe as I've taken her far and wide over the last 15 years or so she was happy to come over as I was still recovering from the drive south and then an hour in traffic as the North Circular Road was closed after a burst water main (I live next to it so once the detour didn't help I just weaved in and out of the solid line of traffic on the next available road). She seems to almost be capable of a reasonable conversation when in the right mood, maybe it will continue. Had she not been one of the nicest and most attractive women I've had show an interest in me you can understand why I can't turn her down flat just for her relative childlike persona. I'm not much better, bodily function jokes, no body language or other clues as stated before, making more tactless comments trying not to make the ones I stopped myself making, and whatever other thorough lack of social etiquette mainly due to a lifetime looking after myself much of the time. My parents were there but worked full time, my mother worked at home preparing cases many nights as well as long days, and how anyone's expected to socialise normally with no one less than 26 years older than you (besides the au pairs who as you'd expect changed on a fairly regular basis) when you do get a chance to talk. And that included no cousins either who can fill a gap when no one else.
I and 99% of people over 25 won't change now, unless we pick up a single issue which gets us into trouble so we identify it and fix it so we don't again. Unless I'm expected to marry them I accept people exactly as they are, but marriage of course is the exception, as even if you don't like a house or tattoo you can do something about it fairly painlessly (well not the laser or skin graft maybe) whereas divorce is not just crap but can cost me my house I bought myself in 1988 initially with various changes since. ie I don't plan to get divorced if I do get married. So I put Grace under the microscope as having found exactly what makes others marriage material (but they didn't want to) squeezing square pegs in round holes is possible but needs someone (probably me) to be pretty flexible.
So that's the week, I went to Watford today to fill the 4th map square as that's something to do and can do it easily and locally, and besides the jobs building up at home which will keep me busy when I don't go anywhere anything else will arrive at the time, black, white, grey or brown. Maybe by January I'll have someone to take with me to the wedding, if I'm even allowed to that is.
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Reply #1092. Sep 06 12, 7:37 PM
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Anyone following this soap opera will nearly always be asking the main question 'what are you going to do with this woman?' whoever she is at the time, as it seems to be a theme where whatever the details the same outcome always happens since maybe 2002, absolutely bugger all. OK, there was a tiny exception, but that was the last regular. As it's coming up to two weeks the latest isn't going to contact me so before I evaporate into the fragments of memory dissolving into the ether I'll use one of the various ways I can contact her without her having told me, as it's that or you know what. Actually if she hasn't called me it's almost certainly you know what already, but the excuse/apology will be interested if present.
Otherwise it's the eye test on Tuesday to check the aneurysms after their first year (blimey, even I'm getting old, first the reading glasses and now this), and the wedding in January I should manage to cope with, tablets included (that's why I have them). This year I've met more people than the last ten I think, as a series of meetings and parties has opened up the social scene again, although I haven't hooked up with anyone new of either sex yet and only really clicked with the latest one (while we were together anyway). When I make the sort of comments I do here on my other local group I get met with the screen equivalent of blank looks as besides a few they just don't get me at all. So while they are mainly local, although many abroad as well, I still hang out here where nearly everyone is way too far to see in all but the most exceptional circumstances. I'm so pleased I could make it to Waterloo for our first big meeting in 2004, having travelled the shortest distance so pure luck it was closer to me, and unlike the locals (god forbid they read this...) would have liked to see everyone again. They are a nice bunch this way as well but know everyone here a lot better- I went to school with some of them but nothing recent since finding them a couple of years ago here.
No idea what else I'm doing ahead, the housework will benefit if nothing else, the rest is down to the system. I can't yet direct that, so hope it's still working for me not regardless of me. |
Reply #1093. Sep 07 12, 8:00 PM
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Although the impending requirement to drive for miles was an added obligation I'm now a bit lost there's nowhere really left to go. When the clocks go back it won't be in question, I'll paint, play music and watch TV (I may even see Grace more) but there are a few lighter weeks left I could go somewhere but only a possible east coast if I really am at a loose end before it's really too late. Going south is easy but it stops at Brighton, so have to make the best of the other variable routes, the easiest being via Oxford which I did last month. I may go there again just because it's there and I can fill in more parts there as I know it well enough from living there, except half the roads are now not usable as the council appear to be run by soviet imports since it broke up over there.
I'll contact the woman I met this week before she also forgets who I am. As any teacher will say, it's always possible for people to let you down even more. If someone can do the wrong thing in worse and worse ways someone always will. I am beginning to think it's sabotage as there was no reason I could think of why she wouldn't otherwise, it really is an endless soap opera.
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Reply #1094. Sep 08 12, 4:45 PM
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I spent yesterday afternoon driving round north Surrey filling in a space without any pictures, and after spending hours uploading them all (they all need to go on the map) found an email from you know who, so my patience has been rewarded. It would have been odd otherwise as besides a very unlikely sabotage there was no reason not to. Besides that it's all gone quiet for the moment- not sure what I'll do today, and the eye test tomorrow, with Andy Murray in yet another major final tonight (not on TV where I am mind you) and England playing again tomorrow so those parts are covered. I suppose I can do pretty much what I like after that and if I get to maybe Oxford just for something to do and definitely get some gardening done.
That covers me for a couple of days now so will get on with it and if anything else happens outside my side (in a good way) will be a bonus. |
Reply #1095. Sep 10 12, 9:25 AM
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Into the next phase, and expect I'll get used to local duties again as no shortage of (however repetitive) activity here. Thank goodness the aneurysms haven't changed since they arrived, apparently high blood pressure could have expanded them which was the main concern, although there is no direct treatment, only if there's a known cause which I have had tested away as far as they can find. Working today but some fascinating material as was a regression hypnosis where you tap outside knowledge. Next I expect will be filling in the 4th 10km square on the map around Radlett which will keep me out of mischief the next free day. I managed to see Andy Murray win our first grand slam since 1936 live, and after losing two sets seemed down and out, only to play his best in the decider. What a relief I can tell you.
No other plans whatsoever besides my planned psychic development work now clear to spend more time on. I think it's now safe to say I have my new friend now regardless, whenever I get to see her, and will just deal with each new day, challenge, and other event when they arrive, or not. |
Reply #1096. Sep 12 12, 5:17 PM
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Today being free I didn't really see the point going to Oxford when getting the local area would be more productive as adding to a different record. The only turd in the swimming pool was I discovered the only unbagged square since about 2006 within 50 miles (none on public land or would have gone already) was clear till this year and possibly as obscured by a place name on the site map no one else had seen it, although by magnifying the zoom level would have been revealed, although you'd have to think to do it in that exact area. Otherwise it went smoothly, and got about 80% of the required squares (13/17 I think, I'm not getting the calculator out) with hopefully no more off road as it's harder to get the locations accurately as well as find them.
I'm seeing someone I knew ages ago on Saturday, so that's taken care of, and after that no doubt something else will turn up besides 60 mile trips to keep me occupied. I was advised to work directly with angels by the clairvoyant yesterday, which is exactly what the latest woman was doing and was the link which connected us (two cats and her boss/my friend called angel, as well as her reading about them). That's what I call signs if you want to see an example. The next stage of course is results, as angels are said to exist to serve, and happy to do so, they have no will but ours. My other mission is the existing one, but have some specific advice now about breaking down my political work into stages so people can work it out in steps, bearing in mind how long it took me I suppose presenting it as a complete package will probably put most people off. I certainly wasn't planning what else to do to get in the media, I just followed up a few leads and found a complete structure hardly anyone else was aware of, so it is my duty to tell them to save us from it. Unlike many missions the only missing part here is the will to share it, the material is published so not like trying to prove a murder or get a confession. The people behind this scandal are proud of it and many are only too pleased to explain their views as they believe they are right, one world government is obviously a good thing and you know what, most people I ask agree. Except the missing part is this one won't ever hold elections so will have the same policy wherever we are like it or not. That is what I am saving people from. With many tiny states now attempting independence, self sufficiency with inadequate resources is a recipe for reliance on others, but they will make their own rules. Imagine no one ever having that option instead. Not so good is it? |
Reply #1097. Sep 13 12, 5:27 PM
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Top of the policy list seems to be culling humans. Keep us poor, cold and hungry, deprive us of transport, so we haven't got the will or energy to fight back. Like shooting fish in a barrel.
Reply #1098. Sep 14 12, 1:02 PM
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I'll start planning it soon, but will need some help in high places to get the message across, I have few funds and fewer resources, you could say I was the brains behind the thing but that would sound like boasting.
Now the long trips are done I'm glad they are, but a bit lost now, although it's getting dark very quickly already so wouldn't have many chances before the spring even if I had one. Yesterday I got 13/17 of the required squares to the NW of me, and think there may be road access to the hardest one after doing some checking. Every Friday is my mum as always, and seeing the old friend tomorrow across the river. Then I have no idea. This plan to harness the power of angels really isn't mine but have nothing to lose- so many repetitions of anything in a short time have to be a message which will keep doing so until we do something about it. I envisage what we are aware of is a small end of the spectrum while behind it is an infinite area of activity masters throughout history have connected with and controls much of what happens here. Once we learn then we can do so and certainly no need to become an extra dimensional before we do, as much of what happens now is within our own control already but we don't do it deliberately.
The next message was I needed to become famous to carry out my missions. Write the pamphlets and distribute them, most people will think I'm potty and persecute me after tearing them up, so presumably a machine gun approach to catch the right fish, although I've been doing the same online without even a worn tyre for my efforts. I will have to do it and see. |
Reply #1099. Sep 14 12, 5:12 PM
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Technically besides a distant (and most likely short) wedding I am pretty much free now. Last night a new road sign turned up I can get next week, and may visit my friend's family on Tuesday for Jewish New Year if I'm around. Till then I haven't a clue, and will just sit back and see what else turns up. I assume many people think I'm potty saying our lives may be guided by a higher force, but when I tell people about it directly you'd be surprised to hear how many either agree or say it happens to them as well. Of course it can't just be a small select group but the same for everyone, and just have to reach the point where we are aware and ready for it. Meanwhile having decided to call it a day on the exam front Grace called with her free weekend minutes and spend 40 minutes explaining how to do resits without more than a few hours a week of extra tuition in case she could pass this time, and now she's considering it. As an ex teacher (at her own school) I feel I know enough about exam preparations to advise her, and possibly from a random call may have directed her back on her preferred path. My friend in America's wife was the subject of a psychic test this week for a subject of mine, and her advice may help her return here having believed she is well and truly stuck there but wanting to come back. And she'd prayed for guidance but you then have to recognise when it comes.
So it certainly isn't just me, and imagine the effect on science when there's another level of physics above this one. It's also the quantum level as that responds to observation, and would suggest everything is connected at the level of awareness so everything which we think is both open to everyone else if we tune in and can affect physical reality as creators. That's some power if we can then learn to direct it instead of letting it happen randomly (or apparently so) until we start seeing patterns so clear it's impossible not to be arranged somehow. |
Reply #1100. Sep 15 12, 6:01 PM
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