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Goodness knows how many people I offend and alienate with my plain speaking, but if I don't say certain things I can't rely on anyone else to, so would feel I was depriving people of information if I just kept it to myself, plus people may assume I think differently. No doubt my way.
So, a busy week to begin with- going to two different road signs people found for me plus the trip to the south coast at last before the clocks went back, and then the rest of the week recovering until I am now pretty much back to square one activity wise. Thank goodness so many things have been achieved, but no doubt going to local parks (weather permitting, it's cold now), shops and please god people will return and this time I won't feel guilty just pottering around locally after doing one or two 30-60 mile trips a week since about March. I'm sure if I had a bigger car again they'd be up to around 100 (my record was 500 total in a day but motorway almost door to door and barely noticed it back then when I was on a collecting mission), that was 20 years ago and the one thing I am very clearly aware of is I get easily worn out now doing things that would often have worn people out 20 years my junior but didn't for me at the time.
Anyway, it's a great shame people are so reliable in letting us down but as my spiritual teacher and lecturers said, it's their problem. I just heard someone else I was mad about in the 70s on the radio, although unlike Vivienne she never liked me back, and sent her a message, now my radar tells me she probably will reply as she's that sort of person, although being 200 miles away that's all it can ever be (probably married with 3 kids, par for course).
Just to wind up the critics even more (like any read this...), I am a voluntary information officer for an anti-global warming tax group, and just sent a couple of pieces off to a new site which has taken them on as associates. I am honing my knowledge on the subject and simply following scientific method am truly disgusted how something totally backward, ie using nothing more than assumption, induction and prediction and then telling us 'The science is settled' (the defendant is guilty, in other words) and punishing mankind worldwide. This is a scandal of a previously unseen scale as worldwide run by the UN and affecting every single country on earth. Money is being sent across borders in trillions, to the EU, third world and bankers alike through compulsory taxes, while we are threatened with energy rationing. One Zimbabwe in the world is one too many, and we are all heading that way steadily. |
Reply #661. Aug 26 11, 8:42 PM
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This makes a change- I've actually pretty much completed my photo projects and now although I no longer have to do 50 plus mile long trips have run out of ideas what to do next. No doubt I'll do another one or two sooner or later, but no longer need to according to my plan.
No reply from the next message yet, although this one never really liked me she seemed the type to do the right thing, I will see as I know she's got quite a demanding job. And as I'm already in touch with her brother maybe it'll be a good reason not to ignore me. It's catching up on videos today so covered the ideas so far, and at least running out of other things means I'll clear the garage out at last and then tidy the house as some things go in there. It is a great relief to have more than finished my plans for map coverage as it was hard work driving around but something usually turns up to replace the previous activities. Next week and beyond will tell. |
Reply #662. Aug 28 11, 10:10 AM
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I ended up at an art gallery today (no photos here so see the forum), no long trip but plenty of photos. It is planned for later in the week though so should pretty much complete the project as intended, with anything more being a bonus. I'm probably going to Finchley tomorrow for a few things before the ex arrives, and then may go south on Wednesday assuming I wake up in time.
I have some rough longer term plans in place now, more videos, inside and out, and then begin more of the winter based activities like finishing the painting I started (it went wrong and put me off), and maybe trying to find more people to go and visit. I've got other courses I can study here more as well which are also part of my annual compulsory tasks. But at least I can't feel guilty now not working on the photo project as although the final trip is a significant one it's more than I expected when I begun and isn't a particularly tough one.
I am going to look at a data watch tomorrow, I have one now but besides being cheap and looking good I would only buy it if it had a bigger memory than this one, I had one for about 15 years which did and finally stopped having parts made for it so had to be retired, and have had this for 9 so made good use of it. I've got loads of others, all presents which need winding every day or wearing if automatic or battery powered which have run out and not worth replacing, but with my bad memory if I don't miss a TV programme or phone call I'm better with the data alarm. My phone has them as well but tend to use that as a last resort and not many on it either. And I will soon look for the photos I'm scanning for Lesley, I have it on the list but finding them is what takes the time. |
Reply #663. Aug 29 11, 6:50 PM
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The shopping trip expanded as I went along, as my mother also gave me an envelope to take to the post office. The watches in the shop were all the same as the one I have whatever the casing, as they only have a single unit and just house it in different containers and add the odd feature to some. They did seem to have brought back my original from the 80s but was massive and can live without it a second time. Then the post office which usually only has a couple of other users was shut (heck knows why, the computer had problems but wasn't the official reason) so rather than give up had to go to the next stop for food and the busy one near it. Only about five people in front and behind me (not quite only but could easily be double figures as it's where I sent the mail orders from work most weeks for five years and often snaked the length of the shop) but still many more than the usual place. I then got the food, three heavy bags which then had to be carried back to the car where the post office was. It's the only supermarket I know with hardly any ready meals but as I have a voucher I have to go to one branch or another and that's the easiest.
The ex is on her way, last week was the record (I never know when she's coming, I just wait for the call), 10pm. That's a great time to turn up for the evening and at least I'd ordered the food long beforehand as I knew it wasn't going to be after she arrived. She makes arrangements with other people knowing she's going somewhere and just lets them queue up. Goodness knows when it's tonight but there's nothing on TV so had no alternative to keep me occupied.
Otherwise I'm hoping the final trip to the coast will be this week or so, before it gets dark too early. The large map square is that way and will then have as many as I can get without driving for many miles. Meanwhile the catastrophist wave currently sweeping Facebook continues, while people fed up with ordinary life trawl the websites for dire predictions that never happen and before you take a breath they've found a new one. It seems some people can only manage with something to look forward to, even if it's invented and never actually exists. Now comet Elenin, something perfectly ordinary and documented, is possibly disintegrating the next in a growing list of nonsense is on its way off the system, with apparently nothing left to replace it until the end of 2012 which has been hanging around so long only the deeply rooted future addicts still consider it as significant, not yet learning the lesson that we are supposed to focus on the present. At least the day after that prediction nearly everyone left will be cured of the delusion as it'll be pretty hard to follow that with a new one (although a few are bound to have a go).
Harold Camping may now be in care (a little late as it may have saved us from his last debacle) but before he was put away he left us with another date I didn't bother to write down, and even the hard core followers haven't seemed to either. I also just read the purpose of life is experience. That makes pretty good sense to me as it's the only thing we all have in common and is infinitely variable. Even the queues at the bloody post office. |
Reply #664. Aug 30 11, 12:38 PM
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Well my intuition was good, the woman I knew from holiday did just reply and although stayed in Devon at least is back in touch and bound to visit her brother near me sooner or later. The ex went cold on me some time ago so expected no different but still weird how Ronald blew me out.
I have just discovered a road sign I thought was gone is not, so am heading there tomorrow, it was just off the road I expected and why I didn't see it when I looked before. So that's the week taken care of more or less, I had little to do tomorrow besides a walk to the shops but was up so late last night there wasn't so much of the day left to use. And I should get to bed early so I can get the sign sooner tomorrow. That'll be a first but really makes a change. Now if my friend's single as well that'll be even better, even 200 miles away. However unlikely anything's possible. |
Reply #665. Aug 31 11, 4:25 PM
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Good luck - good night - sweet dreams! :)
Reply #666. Aug 31 11, 5:28 PM
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Thanks Lesley- I was going to bed early but some news stories popped up and I had to spread the word beforehand so I could get my comments in before they dropped off the front pages and post it all here as well. I hope one by one just as I was people will be educated that our politicians aren't out to help us and assume it's the exact opposite. The only thing you can trust them to do is let you down and rip you off.
Amazingly after being at a total loose end unless I went to the coast today an old sign resurfaced nearby I'd assumed had gone, but wasn't quite on the road it said so drove right past it when I did look. So that covered today and also went to the gym which is near it, so the week did actually offer its own activity without me needing to do a thing. It was just the right time for something like that to happen. |
Reply #667. Sep 01 11, 3:42 PM
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There was a sign near my apartment years ago that I wish I had a picture of. Nothing fancy, just indicating that the 3 story building was in fact "Lout's Hotel".
I imagined a boading house style of breakfast, with men in zoot suits and pencil moustashes having their morning coffee before stepping into the world to scam lonely women out of their life savings.
Reply #668. Sep 01 11, 5:35 PM
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There are lists of inappropriate business names around- Climax Cleaners in west London is one of my favourites, I'll let people draw their own images. There's also the Nu-Screw and Nut near me which I always enjoy passing for a giggle.
After a total blank on Monday the week's not only turned out OK but virtually out of my hands doing so. After the lost road sign turned up that fulfilled a major ambition as a collector, otherwise got my usual shopping done, did some writing, went to the gym, saw the ex as per, finally got a reply from yet another love who rejected me in the 70s and got a total of 0 housework done. That usually means I have other things to do so besides the length of the grass it's a good thing.
I hope to get to the south coast again soon, I did two weeks ago but Ordnance Survey being who they are put two squares mainly at sea, so rather than as I did north go to a node and do four in a couple of miles (although I'd done three already it was the easiest way I could have done it) it needs two separate journeys to promontories do these two as there's about a 20 mile gap between them. At least the summer can go out with a bit of a bang although it does mean not driving through Brighton as it's some way to the east. Brighton is very special to me, as well as visiting there all my life and having an uncle there till he died in 1987 I first saw my meditation teacher in person there after months of videos as he lectures in about a different country per week, and learnt how to meditate there the following year (it was a long course). The following year I went back to see him there again, and after that he came to London so saw him twice here. I hadn't been there since about 2002 now simply as it's miles away and there are so many other places on the coast I worked my way round the others as well till we ran out. But the next map square is the objective so far more important.
I remembered another friend from Devon I haven't been able to track down ought to know the other one so will ask her if she knows where she is. If you close your eyes and throw enough darts you must score a bullseye eventually, but unfortunately not before you've broken a couple of windows and had someone's eye out. I've no idea the statistics of rekindling either old flames or damp squibs, I know one which did work just before the guy was getting married (he was a basket at school and still is 40 years later) and others reported in the papers for breaking up marriages, but quite probably the exceptions. But I do know I carry on conversations with people unlimited periods afterwards as I did before. I've done all the work and can return to whatever was there already, so despite the phenomenal odds against being single and local just one of these lost souls could fit in almost immediately if recovered, compared to all the hazards with a new model.
I have reached the point I always do after a time, of forgetting what a girlfriend is for. I can't remember what it feels like to be with someone I like and how it would improve my life directly, I just know it was better when I did so probably will be if I do again. The gaps increase as the years pass though, and now I've forgotten why I've pretty much stopped trying, although it made little difference when I did. People come and go and the occasional one is a single woman. That'll never change so the odds rarely will either. But I've lost the motivation to care now as it's not even a memory but a formula. I can probably at best see the photo of one of my failures on Facebook I'm friends with now and imagine her being around, as I spent a few years with her at school every day. I've spoken to her on the phone and she is as she appears online, a grown up version of how she was without the silliness. ie pretty much perfect. She's not the only perfect one as everyone is unique, but she does cover all the bases as quite a few others would as well. But on the people I mix with now she's probably at or near the top on that front. She was going to see me last month and then spent the few weeks before she went away ill so that knocked that on the head. Not that her husband would be an impediment as she didn't want me when she was single either.
It's been pretty reasonable as things are for a while, but always nice if they could get even better. But if you aim too high you end up peeing on the wall. Just saying...
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Reply #669. Sep 02 11, 8:31 PM
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Little more to add since yesterday but when's that stopped me? When I consider I used to visit my mother or grandma once a week or so and rarely had anything new to report that I'd done when it's written on a screen suddenly I think of things to mention. I presume the daily activities I cover now wouldn't have counted then, and as I was always driving around either collecting train tickets or football then it was nothing new to report as I always did it. Now I do so much less (I am entitled I think) any new event stands out as the usual days now are far more likely to involve local shopping and a walk in he park. However after covering most of Britain and 10 countries I am actually far happier locally as it's home and it's civilised. Even if 90% of my friends are elsewhere or avoiding me or both it's still home and still have just enough people around to stop it dying on its feet.
Otherwise any news will play itself out sooner or later. I do hope the other woman I knew will finally be revealed by the one I'm in touch with now as she always stood out since day one. My other life was in Devon- 2-4 weeks a year at least for 21 years, so slipped into life there within a day or so each time and the people in the street (as it was a village) often recognised you and said hello as if you'd never left. Quite the opposite of here of course, meeting two people I knew in a day last month was more than in the previous few years put together. Now I have tried having female friends but is the exception rather than the rule as 99% of the time one of us wants more. As it's usually me then unless they're on the doorstep and particularly interesting I let them drift as basically it's a constant reminder of failure. Oddly the last who turned me down just said she didn't remember doing so (I bloody do...), meaning either she changed her mind or forgot. She's tucked away in the bowels of London where the sun hardly reaches but even if I thought I'd demean myself by almost definitely being turned down in the identical way I was when I tried last time I wouldn't fancy going there anyway. I am sensitive to places and at best will drive through them or stop to take a photo but not hang about. I've always been like that, just as you get older you get worse as a rule. If she was both interested in me and still happy to come here every time then it could be different but would be a miracle if she genuinely was interested considering her last reaction.
Anyway, once the south coast is covered fully next trip I'm in hibernation. I've certainly earned it. |
Reply #670. Sep 03 11, 4:42 PM
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I've just had my second Facebook challenge on my campaign on global warming, and have been called to a discussion which I see as an amazing opportunity to share my material with someone who knows little or nothing about it and actually wants to. I've waited a long time for this day to come, the first challenge was just a contradiction but this one is a practical one for me to show my case.
Just to summarise recent studies, sea level has fallen this year wiping out the rise of the previous two, solar activity and angle to the earth has been shown in at least three different studies to correspond with changes over thousands of years, CERN have affirmed earlier theories destroying CO2/cloud feedback, and something we learnt at school reminds us all that CO2 is heavier than air so pump it up and it comes back down before it can do very much at all. That was in around a week!
To counter the critics that I'm not a scientist, beyond pointing out neither is Al Gore, neither is David Icke. Apart from being a professional footballer I have no idea of his qualifications, but his work speaks on its own. I see through illusions and work in the way of a detective, which requires experience and patience. Everyone can do it if motivated to. If I need to check the science I ask a scientists, like a minister consults their advisors. Ministers are rarely qualified in their area but still run the policies for it. The only rule you need is to do your homework and not share anything until you're as sure as you can be about it, just like scientists used to.
So, I think I'm now confident in my role, have countered all the questions and am ready to go. And not so many people who challenge me have done their homework, but so far their opinions have been far too strong to let in any actual data. But they can't ever say if at any time in the future it becomes public that they didn't know. |
Reply #671. Sep 04 11, 4:33 PM
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The rule goes recently if I don't post here for a few days it's because I went on a photo run and am spending the computer time mapping them all. The trip south was not to plan, I was busy on the phone and when the call finally finished noticed a service station which was not meant to be on the route. It turned out we'd missed the exit and it was about 15 miles to the next, so ended up in a totally different area (one at least I hadn't covered either) plus exactly where another road sign was so took that, spent an hour or so getting soaked in the rain which started half way there running in and out of the car, but did pretty well considering the random direction we were sent to, and will do the other one asap.
The last two days were typical. Rain yesterday but I was mapping photos, then the ex arrived late again so had her till past bedtime. Nothing special to do today and just got to the park before the TV began, and then thank goodness the main thing Grace needed was to email her latest photos so came here instead of dragging me out somewhere. I've got no plans now besides housework and gardening, but does need doing so the lack of alternatives should force that in the end. I haven't had a second reply from the old friend in Devon but know her job keeps her busy so will be patient. My intuition said she'd reply and was right. Anything else that happens will be a bonus and just get on with it. |
Reply #672. Sep 07 11, 5:08 PM
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Not a bad week generally, the usual visitors and then finally cleared the big junk out of the garage and did the front garden. The rubbish van is coming on Wednesday and will start clearing the small items out next, and asked the builder to look at all the wood to see if he wants to use any as it's too good to throw out.
The south coast is pencilled in again, after missing the motorway exit on Monday and doing my first digital photos in Kent which was the inevitable result of doing so. Other than that I'll just see whatever happens, much as I did this week, and managed somehow to keep occupied one way or another. |
Reply #673. Sep 09 11, 6:18 PM
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Besides the fortnightly cleaner hoovering throughout the TV programmes the phone didn't stop this afternoon, it was a recording and paused it for longer than I actually watched it. It was raining anyway so not as if I had much else on, but just how it goes sometimes.
It has just been confirmed the odd looking road sign I saw on Monday had been replaced with plastic panels, so not part of my collection as suspected at the time. I didn't go there to take it originally so not a big deal, and still found three in the last few weeks so making a profit.
I'm currently having a discussion on Facebook about how easy it is for people who already know you to judge you for what you say there, even though they should realise you're no different to how you were before. I don't say anything hateful like many there do, and was explaining when you're writing rather than speaking it tends to be more like an essay than a conversation, and as such dealing with facts and not opinions. I have had the advice not to talk as if I'm certain of what I'm saying, but it's just another possibility other people haven't thought of. Not part of my method and having to learn from scratch although stating facts ought not to need sugar coating. Never mind.
I certainly never intended to teach anyone anything, I am far more interested in enlightenment, psychic research and collecting, but if the world is entrapped in mass hysteria those of us immune are so frightened by the growing consequences of totalitarianism and loss of integrity that what else can we do but fight it? The internet has freed most data on everything to us all, I check mine before deciding anything, and suspect most people have not if they carry opinions based on what others tell them. No one learned a thing by following, they must look things up for themselves. |
Reply #674. Sep 10 11, 6:27 PM
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Back again, too early for bed (I'm not used to seeing a 1 on the clock as yet so will keep going a bit longer) so time for some memories and philosophy as usual.
I got a nice message from my old friend in Devon and should meet up when she's over here some time. She was in touch with the other one's family but lost the details which is a shame, but as she's still in the area asked her to check the local connections as it's not like London as most people do know each other round there. And it does make a change for someone to show an interest in the same things as me and what I've done in them. One problem the ex and Grace share is they have no idea or interest in what I do, so all I do is listen to their stories and problems and pretty much pointless talking about mine besides the people we both know. My psychic research, politics, enlightenment etc are all foreign territory to them, explaining why any form of serious relationship would be fatal to my peace of mind. Now the ex is separated I am her next hope (until I squashed the idea in moments), while Grace would be a wonderful companion in the way Lucy was (a cat), but you still want a wife when you have a cat, as you would expect. I must try that dating site again and see if it works if I try often enough.
You do reach a point after being single too long when you know it's better to be with someone but can't remember why or what you're missing. I just have to trust that as I'm so used to having to do without it seems normal now, but I know it could be better. I assume if the right person came along I'd remember instantly, I must have done before when they arrived and turned the other way as soon as I showed an interest, so the memory appears to be saving itself till needed, but does take away much of the motivation to do much about fixing it. And the trouble involved nowadays seems more than it's worth- Grace has been trained over 17 years, having taken her all over the place in the past she now understands and is happy whatever we do, and have met a few others like it but as you'd expect the exception. I assume (more than assume as I've done it many times) women on dating sites or even introduced in person expect to be 'entertained'. Now why men don't want to be taken to eat, theatres, dancing etc before they choose a woman but most women do for men tells me there are general rules which are beyond question or analysis, and I'm personally fed up with the ordeal and have reached an age where simply having someone to talk to who is actually also attractive is more than enough for me.
Now why most women won't consider a man before he's gone through the routine of taking them to every variety of evenings out, preferably paying as well, or they're not worth having beats me. Of course, that's only the start, hurdle number one. When I did the routine, £40 meals out (that's 20 years ago when it was a lot of money), discos where I had tinnitus for days after, films whatever happened to be on that day, etc etc, it didn't get me any better results, they'd clear me out and move on. God knows what the formula is for success but I sure haven't found it. |
Reply #675. Sep 11 11, 7:18 PM
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I prefer a man who makes me laugh.
Oh boy, do we laugh a lot in my house.
As for the reasons why some women are the way they are....not a clue. Sorry, satguru. I wish I had answers like you do.
Reply #676. Sep 11 11, 7:37 PM
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I remember the girls at a youth club I went to when I was about 19. If a boy wanted to take a girl home, he'd better have a car, and it had better be a good one. These were girls of 18, 19, 20. Just proves that the little princess isn't a new phenomenon. I gave up when I overheard a couple of boys looking at one of the more attractive girls, and saying she's had more pricks in her than a pincushion. Moving swiftly on... where are human beings to be found?
No, I've never understood the Spend-Lots-Of-Money routine either. What does it prove? Certainly not that the man will be good to live with, or make good contributions to the gene pool. If a boy wanted to take me home, he needed a personality, and it had better be a good one. And anyway, walking home is much more romantic than hopping in a car. Isn't it?
Reply #677. Sep 11 11, 7:50 PM
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The first time husband and I 'went out' or whatever they call it was a four hour conversation in my living room.
His car was not important. Dinner was something I had in the fridge. One in the morning arrived before we knew it.
He slept on the couch. So, behave yourselves.
Reply #678. Sep 11 11, 8:05 PM
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Lesley, your social circles were pretty well mine so you know exactly where I'm coming from, but I have no idea if it improves the further you get from London. Manchester's no different as I've tried that as well anyway.
As for laughs, my only test in my lifetime if I'm likely to succeed is if a woman laughs at my bad jokes, and if it's a toilet joke as well I can pretty well get a room. Needless to say it doesn't happen very often now...
After the detour last week we finally made it to Seaford, I'd never been before and unlike the other resorts in Sussex apart from the centre was all modern houses. I've added some photos in the forum already so no need to describe it any more than that. I took nearly 150 photos as I need to represent all the places on the way as well if I want to do it properly, and chuck away a percentage that can't be used so end up without as many I can include. I spent today mapping them and no need to do much now, besides let the rubbish collectors in tomorrow to be paid. Then I'll have to sort through what's left and see what to do with it all, and sweep the remains of the builder's rubble and whatever got wet off the floor next.
So that's another mission complete and have just been bought a CD of Winifred Atwell which I'll now use to learn some more piano pieces as I can only really play something by memory from listening to it so rarely add to the same old junk I've been playing for 30 years, plus if anyone like the jazz pianist I caught at the YMCA for 5 minutes could teach me directly that works as well, but it's not something many pianists can do properly without the music as well, let alone teach.
My friend from Devon wants to come and see me so that's all systems go friend wise, we developed a lot of similar interests in the last 30 years and at least now she's interested in my intellect which is one more thing than before (ie zero). I think the last time I saw her we spent a week having to wander around with her awful boyfriend who lived a mile from where I do now, and basically could have come from a third world country as far as his level of civilisation went. She is the daughter of a lord however, as I do tend to aim high, but more than that I would never divulge as it's not good manners. |
Reply #679. Sep 13 11, 7:51 PM
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And we do like a man with manners! :D
Some of my nephews and nieces have married Mancunians, and I have found the same thing. The younger they are, the more full of themselves they are. Not nice.
You sound like you're doing better. More power to your elbow ... or your camera ... or whatever needs power.
Reply #680. Sep 14 11, 6:30 AM
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