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Well it's still quiet, I have swept all the issues out of the way but nothing much is left in the activities department. I'm going for a walk in a minute as it's sunny today and just done an hour's work, and with the shorter days will now add photos nearer to home where I haven't got them for the next few months so won't be stuck altogether by them. As far as I know I've got nothing known ahead, so a pretty clean slate, although the fact I've still done barely any housework means so far I've still been busy doing more interesting things.
The dating site is now over for the time being, three messages sent, no replies, pretty typical really. People who succeed on them either spend years sending hundreds like I did in 2002, or are incredibly lucky. The odds are for the long haul though and unless you both find a site with enough choice in the first place (unlike this one, quality but not quantity) and send multiple messages a week with the ensuing hoard of replies, many from either time waster, nutters or inadequate people which you only discover once you speak to them, and spend hours a day whittling them down to the one or two you then meet, and tiny tiny percentage who click when you do (about 1/50 plus for me). Forget it. The new site was based on the luck principle, the three I sent were apparently my type but as per usual I was definitely not theirs. I do know from experience I get on far better with American women (and people in general) but not much help in Kingsbury is it? There have been a few over the years who were living here, and had some American friends as well and always found the attitude there is they talk to strangers by default, whereas here they avoid them. And American women ask men out which does not happen here full stop. Almost never. Men do all the work and get all the bullets. Although I still can't remember why I want a girlfriend I use the formula I liked it in the past so should prefer it again, but can't recall what it was like directly. Except the bad ones...
I can also see why I chase the old ones from the past simply as the hard work had already been done, but it's almost like trying to get a scrambled egg back into two parts, but possible. I've always tended to aim far too high but at least I have got myself on TV a few times so can deliver on a couple of them. |
Reply #741. Oct 22 11, 9:34 AM
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There's usually a good reason if I'm not here for a while, I've been taking photos. With the clocks going back at the weekend I've been out the last three days and then have to upload them all to the exact map references. I even found an incredibly rare road sign on Sunday, and the excitement must have made my hands shake as although I still took two the usable one needed a lot of editing to be just about respectable. It's a long way to go back and thank goodness the print wasn't really blurred so you'd see.
So I can do pretty well what I like now. I even got some housework done as the card reader has been arguing with the computer for a few weeks and had to switch it off for a while to try and fix it so got the ironing and washing done as that was all there was left to do. It did accept it in the end but spent a whole £2 ordering a camera lead in case it goes funny again and will just load the photos like that, but still need the card reader so I can load the prints to an SD card and take it in the other room where the printer is.
So I'm free now for as long as it lasts, and at least won't feel guilty now whatever I do or don't.
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Reply #742. Oct 25 11, 5:45 PM
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Today was my official day off, no plans, photo trips intended or otherwise, and as it was sunny went for a walk in my old park a few miles away and got some shopping and that was quite good enough for me. I have a few medium length and shorter trips that can be taken before about 5pm if required, as apart from the rest of this week it'll be dark by then till nearly April, thanks to not the forces of nature but the government, who when the days get shorter choose to cut an extra hour a day off for five months of the year. That really makes sense.
So the plans are now to spend more time on the numerous spiritual exercises I'm picking up, and if they work then what goes on outside will matter less and less. I'm sure we can work to improve our temperament, and if we feel better more then it isn't so important what goes wrong otherwise. Otherwise nothing special either way, but quite happy carrying on without feeling I should be doing something else for a change. |
Reply #743. Oct 26 11, 5:06 PM
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Another free day, although I've been out taking photos four days in a row (as the clocks go back on Sunday) I planned one more today but was raining and gave the idea up, although the rain stopped in time to go if I rushed later on. I've been fixing up bits and pieces on the computer- finding more old photos etc, and also need to fix the security as it went west when I tried a system restore. My card reader now demostrated despite working on the laptop must have a loose connection as when I loaded photos it disconnected half way through, showing it must be a hardware problem. The new cable will always let me upload photos when it arrives but must have a card reader working to make prints. I think the reader's still in guarantee so presumably yet another trip to Jessop's sooner or later.
I hope to do the final trip tomorrow now, it's not far but mops up quite a few map squares, and have plenty of stuff to do now till then which I will get on with. I'm now uninstalling the security altogether as I can't get a new lot apparently while there's half the original lying shattered on the virtual floor. Most programs wipe the old remnants of the broken material but not Virgin Media. It used to have a CD but it's all arranged online now, but only when it works which so far has not happened. |
Reply #744. Oct 27 11, 12:13 PM
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I've been very thorough this week. Knowing Saturday's the last day to take photos without a rush for 5 months I've been on varying journeys every day from Sunday except yesterday when it rained, and can now bed down for the winter and if I happen to get up early one day and feel like it may pick off one or two closer places I need if I get the chance.
No idea what will follow besides relative relaxation and housework, and have a couple of legal type email challenges to send to various interested parties as I believe certain groups may have bent the rules beyond the pale and must report it in case as I and in fact everyone is affected if they have. If anything comes of them I will report back. Unfortunately all I did was confirm the massive lack of returns from dating sites after the risk free unpaid one I just tried, I stopped going to weekend socials after the same people who remained single after 1985 (including me of course) were still there 20 years on. I went every year for ages as it took me that long to forget how truly dire they were and new attractive women really don't suddenly join, just more newly divorced ones I went out with in the 80s already.
But I trust ahead now, I think of things just in time most days and no doubt once I get inspired somehow will get other ideas for the dark afternoons ahead, I can always do more paintings as well and local videos which many people like. Anything more will be a bonus as always. |
Reply #745. Oct 28 11, 8:08 PM
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Besides the natural seasons we now have a man made one, we're losing an hour of daylight for five months now because the government say so. As a photographer I am more affected than most, so now basically have to find other things to do after spending nearly every day last week taking as many places as possible while I could. No doubt other things will turn up, and if I even manage to see a few more friends (besides the usual couple of nudniks that is) if I can think of any that is.
At least the house will benefit. Rather than make lists of places to go I'll do my shopping, go for walks in the better weather, and then do things indoors. But since I started making as many long trips as possible this year to complete the photo map to what I considered a reasonable minimum I've been around many old and new places I probably wouldn't have bothered to otherwise, and hopefully get the next one done in the spring planned which is even further. If they can find a way to fix the North Circular Road so it flows from west to east then I can return to Essex again, which I have once by a route better suited to a local bus, but have so much I could have covered had the traffic not been diverted to the three other roads that go there (the river Lea has far fewer bridges than the Thames and when the biggest one is inaccessible then there are only two options, one a couple of miles south and one a few miles north) or I'd have done it all already.
I'm learning to ignore the news now. It's not my business or my problem, and as there's nothing I can do about it either way then besides shopping around for the best prices the rest is out of my hands. I understand how the current political system works, pretty much a world mafia with a few exceptions if they can beat the prevailing mood where they are in power. It may last forever and it may fall, but sod it, I'm not playing any more.
I hope I've missed something interesting ahead, of course I can't see beyond the dire Grand Prix tomorrow, not just a repeat but meaningless as the championship was won weeks ago but they race till the end anyhow as people watch it regardless for some reason. It won't be on TV after this season except a few selected races so the end of another era in my life which was one I did like. That followed all the cricket and wonder what little remains will be next. Only Wimbledon and some golf and I'd say the golf as it's not a national institution like Wimbledon so no reason to keep it. And maybe the World Cup football as a final coup for exploitation. No reason why not, Tony Blair changed the law after agreeing he would if Rupert Murdoch change The Sun to support Labour before he got in power. He's probably 90% of the reason Britain is now following Greece and Zimbabwe into rogue nation status, and always proves a pretty face and smooth tongue will gain far more votes than any actual policies. The story goes in a complete circle and he was probably the beginning of the end for Britain. |
Reply #746. Oct 29 11, 6:08 PM
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It's now the winter season photography wise, but didn't miss any trips this year so can rest on those particular laurels and if one or two more happen in the spring then all the better. I can do loads of more local ones just to fill in gaps all year round and at least are a lot easier to do.
The Berkeley University scandal has doubled today, with Judith Curry, the joint author, both disowning the study as it was released before completion by her colleague Dr Muller, and was also proved to have hidden a ten year flat set of readings by doubly averaging out the figures to removed 2005-2010 completely (although they were in the original data so possible to retrieve). Climategate was not an exception, but how the data is always created. I have waded through page after page of adjustments and reversions to original, and time and time again what looks like a hockey stick can be seen either to have suffered a distortion close to Pete Burns' face or selected from the favourable readings while discarding the rest. Michael Mann's latest offering shows 75% of the world in red, having risen since the last snapshot whenever he took it. But read the raw data (an example where he did let it out) and you see the map used 25% of direct readings, and the 75% without any thermometers was simply filled in like a primary school child wanting to finish his homework quickly before he went out at the weekend. He just filled the rest in with red, simple as.
So a fraud as big but actually retrievable within the study's data itself is a twist too far. He's put a graph out which although doubles every single IPCC measurement since 1900 (no idea how that went unchallenged) the last ten years had been wiped out in the final draft, but by reversing the two changes he made suddenly appears again as it was a fully reversible trick unlike dropping ink in a bucket of water. Turn the sums round and suddenly the truth comes out. He did, however, endorse paper 4 of the study concluding 'as the rise may indeed be due to as yet uncertain oceanic cycles we cannot be sure it is from man made influence'. In fact the study concluded yes, it has warmed, but we don't know why. Except it now turns out only warming till 2000 or so. That smacks both of desperation and such hubris the writer hadn't even thought it was possible let alone likely to find out what was actually in the graphs.
How only a handful of people worldwide can see if they are cheating as much as this then maybe the case can't be very genuine as it would speak for itself is a great tragedy, but hopefully as each scandal crops up, as it has to as having studied raw data for ten years from coastguards and universities who do not report to the IPCC they can't both be right, so the foundations are basically not there, more people will awaken to the fact. The doubts are so great it was never more than a potential explanation for a small proportion of temperature influence, while solar and oceanic influences were barely understood in 1990 when this theory became embraced by law.
As we've had more material today I'm happy to report it as unless people read the Daily Mail they won't know it at all, and as the BBC and related vested interests can't report anything which raises genuine doubts I am forced to fill in the gaps for them but would really rather not have to. |
Reply #747. Oct 30 11, 5:34 PM
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I shall wander off and look for the Mail online.
Nostalgia alert:
I remember when the BBC was respected and prized for its intelligent, informative, IMPARTIAL reporting.
Ha!
Reply #748. Oct 31 11, 5:16 AM
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| I posted the link in the world forum. The BBC both invest their pensions in the 'Climate Change Investment Fund' (ie the assertion climate change is there to make people money) and the owner is one of their directors. So they actually have a massive reason to keep the view going as they'll lose a packet if they don't. And they call Italy corrupt... |
Reply #749. Oct 31 11, 8:27 AM
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It's interesting, that while governments do what suits their marginal voters 99% of people suffer as a result of the 1% who are benefitting. Not that I'm talking economics or the hideous campaigns against big business, as big business is like small children, if you let them break things or eat all the sweets then they will. That's the government's fault for letting banks set up a head office in Luxembourg, funnel all the cash in a circle from there and then pay it back there so they don't need to pay any tax. That's what I'd protest against and the government wouldn't care anyway.
But what I mean is deliberately stealing 150 hours of daylight from us for nothing by forcing us to put the clocks back for absolutely nothing (the rest of Europe on our meridian doesn't so why should we?) and wherever I go people are complaining about it. The governments don't give a fecolith (you can tell I do word wizard). So this is the five months of primarily indoor pursuits, although since the clocks went back I still got all the way to Woking and managed photos locally in the park today as well. So they've got me down but not out. I've got a list of places to go I can get to more quickly now and work my way through them as I'm a collector and don't want five months unable to add to the collection.
Otherwise I've made no more plans besides the eventual housework and some more CDs to burn to watch when there's nothing on TV. I won't celebrate about Greece until they've done their stuff and left the Euro, but the EU would rather burn the country to nothing than let them do that and dread to imagine the measures they'll carry out now they've been challenged. What they've got up their sleeve for such rebellions is beyond my imagination, and would rather not have to find out, but they have their methods of enforcement for disobedient subjects and if Greece misbehaves their bottoms are going to get threatened to heck if they don't toe the line. I admire them for trying but looks pretty much a walkover from what I've seen so far, but wish to goodness I was wrong.
My laptop is being wiped after that was the recommendation after it's started hanging the whole time rather than add memory. I had to buy a portable disk which will then transfer what has to go back as well as save me wasting a lot more on a constant procession of memory sticks with a fraction of the memory. I only have my photo printer because of memory sticks. The reason being it said it took them, and as it lives in the new room I take the memory and plug it into the printer, except it takes memory sticks.
Can anyone follow that? I couldn't, I spent £60 to find it doesn't take memory sticks but memory sticks. I'll give a clue. It takes Memory Sticks. Is that clearer now? Capital letters. It's a trademark. Sony took the term to apply to their own brand, meaning all others do not fit my printer so had to buy an SD card (it takes them as everything except my camera do) and when it works transfer the photos I want to that and then shove that in the hole to print instead of using the memory stick (small letters). Luckily it's the same process for both as I had to send each photo onto the external drive regardless, but had I not been able to use an XD card then as I'd already unpacked the printer (you couldn't find it didn't take a memory stick otherwise, so a Dr Who type time dependent phenomenon) and would otherwise have been a very happy charity who got the printer for nothing if I couldn't have used it at all. I had a card reader already and just spent about £9 on the XD card but why did Sony trademark the term so only their cards fit when printers claim otherwise?
These and many more things are probably only likely to be read on my blog, so if you don't read you'll always miss something unique. Or maybe not. |
Reply #750. Nov 01 11, 5:20 PM
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Well well, I surprised myself, I was up in time to head west for photos and went all over the narrow country roads just before it got too dark to carry on. The camera's playing up a bit (at its 6th birthday) but solving the problem with spare parts as long as they do the job. I can relax now and have some work to do later so thought I'd pop in here now beforehand. I'm finding more and more spiritual practices online which actually seem to work as well now and if they carry on then I'll finally reach somewhere like the level I should be after so long working on it.
I just got the shopping on foot before the rain began a minute ago as well so no need to go out for a bit either. And as I came back there was a bang, and a car had rolled down the hill and landed in the house next door. I thought it had only cracked some plaster but they seem to think it could have gone right through the wall, and they've only just built the room this year. The hills are very steep here and it happens from time to time but so far this is easily the biggest example and have the photos to prove it. I leave my car in gear as the handbrake isn't reliable enough on its own.
I see the Greeks wimped out on the referendum, they may have had the expected threats from the Germans but unlike the Brits they may now have a riot on their hands, and I damn well hope so as they have a very good cause. |
Reply #751. Nov 03 11, 10:35 AM
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Must be even more of it when it snows?
Yes, I've been watching the Greek struggle. If that happened here, we'd just sigh a few very loud sighs, tut a bit and carry on. Oh hang - we just did!
Reply #752. Nov 03 11, 11:40 AM
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I'll say with the snow, it's pure chance if they hit anything or get away with it. I've helped push a massive 4wd off the identical corner as even that couldn't handle our junction, and you've seen it so may remember.
It's been a better week than expected, as despite the clocks going back I still did two photo trips beyond local map filling, and am still finding more in my own archives which go back six years now so likely not to all be revealed in one go. There's a long list of winter trips I can make to continue the map square adding I can get to in time, and should keep me busy without too much of a gap, and if the housework doesn't done it's a good thing as it means I'm busy elsewhere.
I just read the Greeks actually apparently wanted to stay in the Euro (although the economists say the only way they could get out of trouble was changing their interest rates and devaluing the currency, neither of which are allowed in it) which surprised me but if true then wouldn't have changed a thing had they had it. So the fraud continues, a currency which effectively creates communism across the Eurozone by evening out all the wealth despite totally different production levels. Marvellous.
I think despite any setbacks I'm doing my best now, by bouncing back from them after a lifetime of giving up. I can't do them all, not many can, but any is an improvement and basically once you find you can then only the hardest remain to turn round. I still have my little wish list, one which vanishes on enlightenment but unless enlightened still need the material things as it is real. You'd need to read a book or two on the subject to know where I'm coming from but that's the teaching. The wish list is the usual mix of possible and very unlikely, and personal and general.
I will always want more TV work as unless you become a regular or get at least one longer terrestrial mainstream exposure you won't make an impression. Getting a woman and moving back to my old area are always on the list, and outside although I've trained myself not to let it affect me either way I really want all oppressive laws to start falling apart. Our lives could be so much better with fewer restrictions, and although I manage as things are I know far more people could if many things were made cheaper and freed up generally. The apparent escape from oppression is simply realising we are oppressed, and enough people knowing to make it become impossible. As long as people assume they are free then any actual oppression is seen as part of the rules and perfectly OK, but add all the individual rules and you see it's only a watered down version of North Korea in most countries to varying degrees. Only knowing my own as you'd expect, we are a lot closer to it than most.
Otherwise I'd also like a book published and a newspaper article nationally, I have had three photos in a book so far and an article about me in two national papers, but not by me which is quite different. Or with a picture. I'd like to get back in touch with at least one more old friend locally, as although a couple are they have moved far and further, and just had to give up with one who was just the wrong side of Surrey to manage it for me. She's married anyway so out of bounds, and would still not be able to see her regularly as she only lives in England part time, and she's the closest of them all.
I think I've covered the main stuff, as well as the constant spiritual work, and it's human nature to always want more unless you actually both reach your major ambitions and it does make you happy. I have enough experience in the past living in a house and area paid for by my parents to know that just being there and having my little female friend two doors away to share my life and others all around in walking distance I didn't really need a lot more. Just to live in a family and have friends around a nice house and area. Being famous and earning enough to buy such a house would be a bonus, but I've already travelled and done the usual sort of things to know I've both done them and far happier in my local community doing my own things. I was just talking with someone about how what seemed easy or fun years ago is now hard work or stressful, I think we either grow into ambitious projects or out of them, so retired people often travel the world while others stay in their allotments. Cats and dogs is how I divide people, as cats like being at home with the family and don't like being removed, where dogs go everywhere and are happy wherever they are as long as with the family. We do a bit of both to start with, and then when we've done enough come down more on one side or another.
So unless I ever get someone here to talk to I'll do most of my talking online, as well as the phone of course, and sadly Grace and the ex, the two usual visitors, are only able to communicate at a level most people leave by secondary school. There's no harm in either of them which is why I carry on, but pretty much like a mother spending the whole day with young children, you just long for adult company.
I've just seen Mystery Hunters is on again with me on the 20th on Dmax on the UK at 5.30 am in case anyone hasn't seen it yet, the time isn't a problem as it can be recorded by the way. |
Reply #753. Nov 04 11, 9:52 PM
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It's gone a bit quiet recently- inevitably as the clocks make it extremely difficult to go anywhere more than the most basic before it gets dark, so have just got my usual activities although sadly I was also invited to a barbecue tonight but I am over the river with my father and wasn't going to change the arrangement or travel all the way there and back again, I'm not 25 any more to play those sort of games. No doubt whatever I miss will be returned in some other way as it often is when that happens. You think you've lost out on some big deal and soon after get something better. I hope so anyway.
I haven't heard from our Australian chemistry student I remembered when talking to Grace about it the other day as she is also a mature chemistry student and wrote to him on Facebook, but as he's only got one friend listed he probably rarely checks it but besides losing a bit of hair looks exactly the same and may still be living over here where he did his studies in the 70s and 80s. It's a shame certain people I knew very well blew me out, especially my neighbour from the 60s who virtually spent every waking day with before they moved, and Ronald who was in my class and went to Amsterdam with where he came from. For god's sake, they don't actually have to see people again who contact them, just be civil. When I look back on those times in the 60s my neighbour showed me pretty much what it would be like to be married. We often slept over and although she was a year older and bossed me around a lot I suppose that applies to a lot of marriages as well and didn't really bother me. She did have a nasty side of wanting her own way and taking advantage of people but was very good company and still kept in touch till she qualified as a lawyer and got married.
I am full aware people with lives don't need new people (albeit from the past) in their lives, but maybe one day theirs may fall apart and they may realise the value of some of the people they originally avoided like a very nasty smell. I speak as one who has never ignored a single email from someone I knew, and they'd have to have been absolutely dire before I'd considering not at least replying to anyone from the past. I think only a couple of people even have contacted me first, one being the woman I'd have married myself given the chance, and the other our biology teacher who vanished after one or two exchanges.
Meanwhile the interest in the outside world once again proves to be unhealthy as Greece toe the line as expected, under the iron boot of the EU. God knows what they were threatened with last week to accept the bailout but as they're now guaranteed no financial independence whatsoever, whereas leaving the Euro would at least have given them the chance to devalue their way out of trouble and sort out their own problems with no strings attached. It affects us all over here as it both strengthens the EU by forcing fiscal union ahead, and costs us all a bloody fortune paying off someone else's debts. Freedom and independence now seem restricted to the US Tea Party, who are now the sole politicians in opposition (none currently anywhere in power) besides a few obscure eastern Europeans who reject the status quo. I dread relying on a single hero to rescue the world for what will be the worst restrictions of combined communism and fascism, but every other major country has dropped their 'wings' to present a unified roughly interventionist collectivist agenda with little or no opposition. Of course this means (as freely admitted) the Bilderberg Group and friends do make world policies, and only the ultra-rich US business magnates who are able to be free of such attractions and persuasions are able to stand up for the few chances we have of retaining any sort of freedom.
The rule of law, separation of powers, Magna Carta, English Bill of Rights, all hundreds of years old, have basically been eroded away to nothing, people see little in their lives changing except their bills increasing, and assume nothing's changed. When cars are banned from cities, or charged per mile then suddenly it'll be too late to realise. Life's hard enough already without our paid servants making them hell for the sheer fun of it thank you very much. |
Reply #754. Nov 06 11, 7:38 PM
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I am amazed more each time a global warming study is released which doesn't agree with the IPCC view and it's ignored. The latest was a Japanese satellite Ibuku, on a two year mission to measure world CO2, and the findings came out last week showing industrial countries absorbed CO2 while undeveloped ones released it. Who'd have imagined that? A week later having shared it myself as always would have thought the foundation for the existence of the IPCC itself must now be in question, the video shows a streaming pattern of CO2 from red (high) to green (negative) changing month by month, and is not a single snapshot but built up over a rolling two year cumulative set.
So industry does not emit CO2, it absorbs it. They are penalised, taxed, restricted and in some cases banned altogether from working, as in EPA drilling and searching regulations, and for what exactly? I have as I sometimes do sent the story to a newspaper myself but yet to find one published. It's almost as incredible to think why the papers don't share such vital information as the new picture of human activity these findings now give us. Eventually it will not be possible to hide it as sooner or later someone will pick it up and run with it in the public arena. It's not Soviet Russia and the internet can't keep it quiet as they could back then, it's all about motivation, whatever does that for the ultimate messenger. |
Reply #755. Nov 07 11, 3:26 PM
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I've had to get into Arctic circle mode now, it was overcast all day and dark by 4 so ended up carrying on a thread somewhere else on global warming not because I wanted to start any more but someone actually asked. That is the only worthwhile way to work now as only preach to the willing. As per some Greenpeace clone arrived and said the subject was past debate and I should go back to infants school and the like, so I carried on as he's showing himself up (could be a her) by getting rude and spouting lunacy while all I try and do is quote scientific data. It's a bit like lunatic baiting but he is really asking for all he gets and quite frankly wish more people would return it as otherwise they think only one person disagrees with them. But by dropping to the baby level it does show them up without a single comment from elsewhere anyhow.
I did, however as promised start emptying the bags from my grandma's, and tidied half my desk at last, so didn't have a single other thing left to stop me. That can easily fill the week whatever else turns up, but I'm guessing it probably won't. I have to accept the driving around for photos is all but over till the spring but did more than expected already this year. |
Reply #756. Nov 08 11, 5:34 PM
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The longer time indoors has ended me spending more time on political research for questions asked online than anything else. I'm learning a lot even if no one new who reads it wants to know. Looking back on my education I do actually use the majority of what I learnt as I do still remember it when required, and whatever the level I stopped at is still extremely useful to me when I need it. Having done a year of accounting before switching to law I also learnt economics, plus sociology as we needed a minor subject for law as well. Constitutional law and jurisprudence join together to find political systems and motivations for law, so as well as my A level could put that all together to pretty well see how vested interests and power connections make the real world policies.
As we are painted as a democracy people vote and think it makes a difference. Over time the common policies grow, so we actually vote on the few differences while getting the same general plans whoever gets in. This is a gradual process much increased since the 60s, and Britain joined when in the Common Market from 1971 onwards, gradually handing over all its main functions. So we vote for very little now, the Tea Party appears to be the sole opposition in the western world currently, as look around and the EU is unified by regulation, Australia and New Zealand follow like sheep, Canada unfortunately seem to miss the radar entirely (but Leonard Cohen gets a lot of material from it if nothing else), and really there's no one else left who isn't either impoverished, totalitarian or both.
Thank goodness nothing stays fixed. However cynical I can't believe that things are stuck forever however powerful vested interests are, but is more a matter of luck to me than people power somehow overturning the corruption at the top levels as people only jump up and shout if corruption is discovered in the X Factor vote, when politicians do it they say 'so what, they always do' and return to their pint. That attitude lets the worst of the worst get in and stay in (I'd name names here but we can all think of plenty) while training their successors. Mafia politics basically and as the internet now allows people to find a few investments of top politicians and their families, you'll see how they change the law to make their pensions grow while they are still working. It's not only third world dictators who do this, they just don't care who knows as they would simply kill anyone who complained. Here it's a lot more subtle but no less criminal. |
Reply #757. Nov 09 11, 4:23 PM
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I seem to have kept busy today, besides hours on the phone which I can do without nowadays. Now I've got the internet it's easier to converse there if I can't actually see people, the phone just seems to mop up time with little gain nowadays. The car's in for its annual test after the neighbour's nephew let me down arranging to do it instead. That meant I had the chance to watch some of the videos after walking round the park on the way home, and called the radio when they asked about opinions on the Euro. The simple answer is when the leaders said today they'd save the Euro at all costs it proves they care far more about the Euro than the people. Says it all really.
I'm slowly getting used to not taking photos, I've still been searching the archives to add new ones online and a few bags have also been removed from my room here since being stuck in the dark afternoons. I usually seem to find things to do considering, Grace is now back at school doing the exams she missed when she was there the first time so gives me a bit of breathing space after having to entertain her most weeks with sadly no 'fringe benefits'. If she'd turned me down flat it would have been one thing, but won't unless I marry her. That's not the sort of deal many people would pass, it's like buying a cake and giving the other person one slice and eating the rest yourself in front of them. Or splitting a shared lottery win 99-1%. If I ever wanted to marry any woman they heard about it, none accepted and those left I didn't ask have actually asked me one way or another (they drop massive hints but I think Grace went a bit further) but remembering all the times I was with someone and learnt they weren't what I wanted the time since felt like a prison sentence. So I remain single and waiting for the cards to fall my way before I'm too old to manage.
Besides hoping the car will be OK tomorrow (it's hardly done any mileage) there are no more plans. I have a few photo trips if I get up earlier than usual, but that's ten minutes less each week till February at least when it catches up with the length today. I can't go anywhere elaborate as I'd never get near there before it got dark, and did plenty this year when I could, but unless I'm adding some other material to my collections feel pretty lost. I am guessing (based on history) nothing can shake the Euro, and they'll just band together and tighten the power across the EU to make sure it doesn't shake loose. It's taken them 50 years to get this far and can't let it slip and whatever it takes to carry on regardless will be done, at the loss of every single individual paying their taxes in it.
Technically I won't lose anything as I'm already in it, but certainly almost no chance of gaining. That's the big problem with looking outside for your benefits. Politicians do what suits them, the few times it coincides with what we want isn't because they listened, but the machine gun effect of firing enough bullets one will hit the target sooner or later. I can't think of more than one news event in my lifetime that improved things, only reducing the London congestion charge recently and I haven't been up there since anyway as I hardly ever did. Each decision has gone the wrong way, from the single vote that accepted Maastricht to every other pro-EU since across the continent, the unanimous yes referendum votes (however many tries it took they got every one), I suppose the only small light was Labour losing the last election, although the coalition are only a wafer better. I can have a moan here anyway, and wonder if I'll ever see a single news story that affects me directly go the right way. History does not bode well. |
Reply #758. Nov 10 11, 8:28 PM
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Hang in there, David. I'm not sure why I think so, but people NEVER need to be married. I believe that 'Grace' will someday be sorry she didn't take you up on whatever you had to offer!:)
Reply #759. Nov 11 11, 8:38 PM
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I hope so VM. Just a little history recap. I was seeing double once. I was introduced to Grace by a friend some time ago. She was very quiet, to the extreme in fact, but I noticed how attractive she was and gave her my number. Some months later she phoned and I invited her over. She came in a pair, and initially I wasn't sure which one. She said 'this is my sister, she's come home from America' and she was even more attractive and not, how can I say, peculiar. I became friends with both and took them out as a pair, but as I'd met Grace first and somehow more used to her asked her out properly and she said 'I think you'd get on better with my sister'. Her sister was even more attractive, a perfect 10 in fact, more so even than Carol the quiet but boring who rejected me a decade earlier after a long casual relationship when I decided it was worth trying for more.
But she was also bossy and manipulative, and very emotionally cold, and after some months admitted she'd had a boyfriend the whole time and dumped me big time. The she had an argument with her mother and asked if she could rent my spare room, I could use the money and had to put up with all her shenanigans (moaning mainly) for a year. Then she got married, went abroad and when her husband turned funny became my best friend all of a sudden. She even said she'd have married me ten years earlier but had developed OCD since and was terrified of dirt and my house wasn't up to her standards. Fair enough, Grace was then separated from her twin and advised to get a husband, and I'd make a good candidate. As her sister was the boss she followed regardless, and pursued me with a single aim until I explained it's not a mission but a relationship for life and she wasn't really that into me except for security and she became a friend instead like we began.
I do however know she does like me but for whatever reason won't get busy unless married. Everyone else except possibly a few Plymouth Brethren or Whabi Muslims (just guessing here) would go ahead, especially at our age, but I have the dud. I've managed to find women like this all my life, if they've fit then either their parents or just distance from London prevented all but the preliminaries from developing before it all fell apart, I've done well in business, got most of my academic aims, got a lovely house and even managed some of my media aims but as for women despite millions on the doorstep and no limits in attempts have singularly failed in every single relationship.
Even my cynicism is amazed by this statistic. My mother and others taught me to keep records rather than rely on memory, and the tries and failed successful starts defies every law of normality. The last one was actually a lot more of a typical relationship, and we had seven pretty happy weeks before she was locked up in high security for the rest of the year with no visitors and came out a broken person after a massive psychotic episode. It revived after that but she was quite different and ended up fighting the whole time as her personality had changed. It was a start but still couldn't last for some reason.
I don't worry about it much nowadays, I've found many ways to keep busy but when one of my failures is still around reminding me of all the separate things that can and have gone wrong it isn't much of a help. I've never had any tickets on myself, quite the opposite till fairly recently, so don't expect a huge amount, but just as much as anyone else. With the 30 plus year stream of excellent quality along the conveyor belt of time you'd expect the bell shape curve of rejections, short term attempts and a few good fits, but the few good fits were all cut off by outside forces without exception.
I must have done the whole history on the old blog but does remind me of the party I went to where I met a woman who was pretty much my imaginary ideal type, laughed at my comments and moaned about the same things I did, accepted my date offer, had a good time and emigrated the next day. it turned out she'd lived next door to my friend's cousin a couple of miles away for 21 years and the first time I'd met her. That pretty well sums it up. |
Reply #760. Nov 11 11, 10:04 PM
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