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I've just uploaded my first road trip from the car, after someone I know online did one and worked out a way to tie up the tripod, and got a nice run to Hampstead Garden Suburb and back. I like it anyway. I did my annual garden photo trip there today before my appointment, and my friend wasn't up to coming over but there was hours on TV so probably easier next week instead. Other than that it's now fairly quiet, as however much activity I do I always return to the empty house, which may last the rest of my life using the intertia principle. I hope to return to Kent at the weekend for a road sign and new map coverage there, and again can relax for a bit having kept the travels going.
Free time with no ideas also means I can meditate, and have to fill in my annual renewal form which I think I have noted down already somewhere. I also have to see why my new VHS video converter isn't working as if I wait too long it'll be out of guarantee, but technically there's no obvious reason it's up the shoot. Again I think inspiration is required, and the guidance to show me the next things to do including more Streetviewing for road signs. I will now wait to be inspired, expired or excreted, I will have to see. |
Reply #921. Mar 29 12, 6:14 PM
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Anyone familiar with Victor Meldrew will recognise the situation I find myself in. Having gone to my mother's with my spring jacket on (although after two hot days I needed the other one) I only had a few pounds for milk and any other requirements, and then realised I ought to have got petrol on the way back and there's a sellout as a threatened strike. The queues have been constant for a couple of days, and hoped if I went late (as there is no strike, and no chance for a week minimum) everyone panicking would have finished and I'd get a chance without waiting ages as I only really needed it now.
I went locally, closed, and due to the supermarkets selling it now most local stations have closed down so only about one per mile now. I planned a route, and actually ended up driving about 20 miles, including to my mother's and beyond and up a dual carriageway in both directions (about 4 miles) as I couldn't see if a place opposite was open without going in physically. I have maybe 10 miles left in the tank and really need to drive 16 tomorrow. I have no petrol can and will be cycling to the local ones tomorrow in case any have refilled and go and queue all afternoon if necessary as if I don't I won't be going anywhere. There are only a couple more places besides the closed ones I've already tried as some close at 10pm, and being Saturday the whole world will be there like going shopping before Christmas.
If I get petrol I'm going to Kent again for a road sign when I can, and will really appreciate my freedom for a few days as the last time I was stuck like this was last winter when I was snowed in for a few days. It's times like this you really need neighbours you can drop into, mine are quite friendly but not to that level, it is London after all. |
Reply #922. Mar 30 12, 7:09 PM
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All set for the next road sign tomorrow, will I get an early night as well (no reasons not to this time) and surprise myself? Other than that when I am assaulted by the news every day and virtually all are like tossing a coin where it could win or lose every time equally and always loses. It's just a message not to care about it as although it affects my life up to a point (it forced me to by a small slow car to save petrol and now avoid motorways) as well as stopped me getting to parts of the country as I can't cross the bridges during the day since they've charged for them, I can still do everything else. I know had the policies changed I'd actually be getting at least twice as much money as I am now as the accounting is very basic, but as I pay the bills now then the only other landmark would be moving house and I still couldn't afford that.
My own life is standard, I do things and come back to an empty house. That's the foundation, and dealt with that area long ago here. So the only thing I can work on is myself. I meditate, I meditate even more, and that is the one thing I can improve. If you're good inside then it's far less important what goes on outside. The timescale is pretty limiting though as these practices can take a lifetime if they work and a bit like retirement you finally get your freedom and then you die soon after. But as the news consistently lets me down I must ditch that altogether (I can't shut it out, it's like a smell where you can't remove the source and keeps coming back depending which way the wind is blowing) and can't fix the empty house situation any more than I can the news. One day maybe the news and the house will go the other way, but I have to make the best of life with them exactly as they are and the only way is to improve myself, however long that's going to take. |
Reply #923. Mar 31 12, 5:12 PM
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I hope this means you have got, or are confident of getting, some petrol.
If you had loads of money, where would you move to - back to HGS?
Reply #924. Mar 31 12, 6:09 PM
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I took my bike to check the garages on Saturday, and the second in Wembley Park was functioning and didn't even have to wait longer than usual. Half of them have been closed since but only one had a queue and mine is now kaput. I'm fine for a week now so don't really mind as it should all be back by then. I'd actually move back to our old house, I finally started feeling at home there and now appreciate the difference not being there. If not there then as close as possible, including a semi in Golders Green as the rooms are much bigger and cost the same.
I did something yesterday I don't think I've done in 12 years, and no doubt won't do again, as my camera had a fit and appeared to recover so although I now have a spare memory card with me it only lasted a second and didn't bother. Of course once it was fercackt it was corrupting the files, and as I took it to my laptop 15 miles from home I only had one battery's life and no recovery software (the neighbour usually deals with those sort of things and had just gone away). I spent a few hours testing new ones, and after about 10 finally got one which recovered the lot (only one recovered any at all, the rest, free or not saw nothing) and as I'd driven way too far to go again (and had an old sign) decided as photos are priceless $80 (however much that is) is just on the borderline of saving any and any future disasters, as it does it about twice a year. The battery failed after an hour (the card has 1200 photos on it, and as it doesn't collect them in order it would have taken a day for them all (the others had been saved already and had found most of them in an hour before the battery died) so went home and back to my father's to get my bits including a card reader which doesn't need a battery and works forever. Sort of.
I charged the battery and was going to be done a bit too late to start recovering next, so tried the card reader and it read all but about 11 garbled photos, just garbling a millimetre or so when the photos had been corrupted, and thank goodness the 11 photos were the closest to home and appear to have been in map squares others had come out. I checked the results and seems the only thing the program had found besides the ones I got automatically were the ones beyond repair all other programs wouldn't have bothered as they must be set up to know what they can and can't use. OK, it's only money, but I now do have probably the best recovery program on the market, and as a camera can mess up any time I know past ones haven't always been findable without a program so is now my insurance policy. It also took a minute using the card reader rather than well over an hour. I just finished mapping and adding the last one about midnight and as it was too late to mess about clearing space and saving the edits I'll need to get some back later as I want them printed tomorrow.
So I can relax again, I also ripped the side of my tyre as someone had parked on a corner when I turned left and hit the kerb swerving away from it, the wheel is bent but should be bent back (I may do it if strong enough) while my tyres are also insured unless excluded from the single most common cause of failure. I will find out tomorrow but I think he said they were only not covered for wearing the tread from use which makes sense. I did save around £10 today by going to Lidls, as the batteries alone were half the price I would have paid locally, and the food was about 25% less than I normally pay as many were brand names as well as the odd stuff they sell from Europe, which is actually better than the rest usually. I may become a regular now although my local branch is like London Airport at Easter and no fun standing in the checkout half the day, while the new one I went to was almost empty.
I plan another long trip soon, Southend or Princes Risborough, and may go this week if I can fill up first. My father's done his back so can't share the driving as normal, as he has saved me a lot of work last year as he likes long runs and we usually take it in turns. I've only got a few left anyway so can spread them out a bit and should manage it myself if necessary. Otherwise I can please myself for a while. |
Reply #925. Apr 02 12, 6:46 PM
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Having finished the past photo upload last night today and much of the week ahead was an open book with a few bookmarks. I took the car up the road first and he said the small tear should be safe, then went to look for a replacement tyre anyhow, didn't have one, and then again said the old one would be OK and bring it back if it starts coming to pieces. But they bent the wheel back into shape in a few minutes and didn't charge so a good job done. I then found the DVDs I bought last week are +RW not -RW and asked a few people if that's OK before I shlep for miles to take them back. It's for burning and unless the burner can't read them they'll work, but I can't open the pack in case I need to return them. I've made the appointment for next week for my blood pressure check, although whatever the outcome (bearing in mind how close it was to normal) don't intend to go on tablets the rest of my life as they made my grandma very ill and didn't make it go down much in 50 years.
I've now got little to do till the ex arrives besides filling in my annual work form (two actually as two professional memberships) and chuck the rubbish out into the assortment of bins we need to sort them into, and just discovered the cleaner put the whole lot in the recycle bin and had to take it all out again and move it or I'd risk a fine. Half the garages have no petrol and half those who have have put the prices way up, although I should get one more long trip before I need any more. But I shouldn't feel guilty doing nothing as I've been to the garage, the doctor and the shops already which all had to be done and plenty of housework and little jobs to do now. I just wish when I had someone here to talk to it wasn't the usual one, it's like groundhog day and not a very interesting one the first time let alone repeated for many years. I've known her so long I haven't the heart to dump her although if I got a girlfriend I'd have to as they wouldn't like such a regular visitor who wanted me as well as them (but I'm not getting caught thank you). I will start work on those jobs now and see how many are done before she arrives. |
Reply #926. Apr 03 12, 10:41 AM
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Busy! Not needing to worry about the time so much now I had two days free after Tuesday, checked the map and drove up the A5 as far as I could, managing the beginning of Milton Keynes as planned. Not having a local map and being a total maze (not as bad as Luton though) didn't fancy getting lost (there was a mile tailback coming out of town so had to avoid it) went past it, made a square and came back. It took a couple of hours to get there, mainly as about 15 minutes was spent waiting at a series of 5 traffic lights in Dunstable which was the main holdup, but all gone on the return leg. I was up till 3am mapping the photos and am free today, it's dry but cold and will go out for a walk soon as nothing else I can think of.
Otherwise it's just business as usual, I did do a psychic reading on the phone yesterday and whatever work I've been doing on myself clearly worked as it was as clear as if I'd known it directly. That tells me something as forget what science thinks if I can do it personally. They can't measure that yet and probably never will. I did all my shopping on Monday so should be covered this week, don't need different glasses and am in enough of a deficit after buying the recovery program I may never need. I will just hand it over to the system now and see what happens, at least there's plenty of TV on later. |
Reply #927. Apr 05 12, 9:03 AM
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I do not like stress, I've had enough for a lifetime already and feel my account is settled. So the ex from the north has yet again arranged to see me tomorrow, the last few years she's only managed about one a year although always more planned than materialised. My mum thought of somewhere to go, as half the places I like close on Saturday and she's already been to my local cafe last time and would never do that twice in a row. Hence the preference not to see her.
After that the relief will carry me along the next few days. There's the final known road sign in Kent hopefully for Sunday which is nearer than the last one. Seder night tonight, for those familiar with the Jewish traditions. As my parents split up 30 years ago it's been with my grandma most years since with my father as my mother remarried, with various others mixed in. My grandma died in 2009 and had the last two abbreviated versions with my father, and for the first time in decades my mother did it tonight. I was fed up with the usual routine long ago, it goes on for hours but now it's only two of us whichever way then we only do the start and the finish and leave the rest out. That's the best of both worlds as we don't miss it or get fed up. The only time that happened once was when my grandma was in hospital a few years ago so we sat with her when she had her dinner there and kept the usual group together regardless when we'd normally have been at her house.
It may still fizzle out tomorrow but since she's no longer living with her mother who's had to go into care the ex doesn't get told when and where she can go out and comes to London nearly every week shopping although she's got no money left to do so. I do wonder how many people would just tell someone they'd known for 30 years (it is now amazingly enough) they didn't want to see them any more (I would have long ago believe me) or just put up with it the rare times it happens. Even since I've refused to go where she asked (actually I did the time before last although it was local) she always likes where I take her instead but just argues until we've actually arrived there. Meanwhile Grace's sister phoned my mum asking her to try and persuade me to marry her. Considering she refused to marry me and would never have been persuaded (as her own mother was the one trying to get her to) she has never had any trouble trying to order everyone else's lives. That was a lucky escape, had she been a proper girlfriend (she never was really) that would have been enough, I'd never have been free married to her.
It made me think of my friend's girlfriend who started seeing me when they split up and he got her back as soon as he found out, she wasn't at all intellectual but still good company regardless, and had he not horned in simply as he didn't want me being with her (he didn't want her before trust me) we may well have been married and with children now as she always wanted them and he refused to and wouldn't even marry her. So I've the option of Grace or London roulette, like Russian roulette but you get rejected instead of killed. If you even find anyone new to reject you. Grace's sister went through all the ways you can make the best of a bad job (to use my interpretation) and technically she was right, you can get married on a shaky foundation and hope it grows, rather than wait for more, and at 52 you haven't got all day to wait for more either. That will take its own course though and I trust the system to direct it. |
Reply #928. Apr 06 12, 8:00 PM
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I think the fairies were working on my side today, the ex phoned just before the time to meet to say she'd spent her money and was going home. What a terrible shame, not. So although I had nothing special to do besides hang the washing up (the new machine now leaves half the loads in a pool of water, there are no instructions and can't find the filter if it's blocked so just dry it for longer) I am free. I'm going to the gym later and hope to get the sign in Kent tomorrow.
I spent much longer up last night than intended anyway as when I was going to bed yet another hard of thinking wiseacre was going on about world Zionism (in far less neutral terms) and I had to step in which kept me up for almost another hour, but had to do what I could to educate them. It's just a form of the same attitude which had the Russian Jews persecuted and restricted to the borderland for centuries (where all my family on both sides lived) and many fled abroad as their villages were being burnt by the Cossacks. Such an attitude never goes away, but just changes its wording to adapt to current systems, the present one being to pretend to direct their hate against a country (a Jewish one) rather than the people directly as if no one can tell what they actually mean. So when taken into a conversation most will swap Zionists for Israel and Jews sooner or later and then without you saying a word they seamlessly turn their words of hatred for Zionists or Israel back to the Jews directly as that was all they ever meant or will mean. I just go around pointing this out whenever anyone says it so at least it hasn't gone away as accepted.
I hope things become interesting, I've collected a heck of a lot in the last few weeks but the only changes it makes just mean I don't have to do those journeys or jobs again. One day in an ideal world I will go abroad again, just over the sea west or south, and I've certainly wanted to go on a plane again but would need to get up hours earlier than now to manage that. It does also take longer to get to most airports (I'm not going to Heathrow as you don't do many short hops and hell to park) so would be Luton ideally, Southend or even City although I probably couldn't park there at all (as it is almost in the City). I'll check in case as although the journey is excrement it is the nearest one and would like to go wherever it goes in an hour regardless, which would be Ireland, the Channel Islands or Amsterdam. The planned trip to Southend is to see the newly imroved airport and will see what the system is there in case it's still as easy as it was in the 70s, although back then we drove the car onto the plane directly and off in France so were mobile all the way and no parking issues. That stopped soon after nationally, and then for the train so no easy runs there, and as you can't park at all in the London stations have absolutely no way to do it besides pay arms and legs for a cab if you have luggage as well. No, things don't get better over time, they stop whatever doesn't make enough money (the train was nationalised, it wasn't meant to, and so were the planes originally) and privatise services and suffer the guaranteed consequences. You can't compete for a railway or water as there is only one system and can't offer alternatives. |
Reply #929. Apr 07 12, 10:17 AM
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It's been a good week and made the most of the long days return. I have now completed all the reachable road signs except about 10 in the maze they call Harlow which should follow, and thank goodness on arrival in Kent yesterday the sign was still there, repainted and hidden behind a tree until I got right up close so thought for a moment it had gone.
A few people had said my focus on gangster politics was depressing, and have now completed my work and will leave it behind to teach or not, as I agree with them. It had to be done but the climate data alone is arriving almost daily and will stand or fall on its own merits without any more work from me. I've learnt a heck of a lot of science and politics and has been very useful, but depressing. I just hope people see through it all as everything is now clearly presented online for anyone who wants to check it for themselves.
I have a few trips planned for the next few weeks, Biggleswade, Harlow and maybe Southend. Had I taken the camera (not this one mind you) when I used to collect football grounds (most banned photography, not now), I'd have added Cambridge (got a few anyhow), Reading, Oxford (done it since), and even Manchester if I go back far enough. Funny in all the times I've never taken the camera there. I've got a few from my cousins in Liverpool as it was only the second time I'd been there and the first I went straight onto a ship, and a few from our holiday north of it, but back then photos were saved for special views and didn't think to simply record wherever I'd been.
It's the blood pressure tomorrow so no time to go out far, the new digital TV recorder Wednesday as we lose the analogue signal this week with a visitor later, so just Thursday if I feel like the next run out. Not doing bad so far anyway. |
Reply #930. Apr 09 12, 2:50 PM
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As usual (including the expectation to come early) I'm sitting here waiting for the ex, as I want to eat and can't until we are both here to get the order. She was early a couple of times last month but only left about an hour earlier than otherwise, better than nothing I suppose. Tomorrow the engineer which may keep me in all day or not as it's a 5 hour window, and hopefully the photo trip on Thursday.
Thank goodness the blood pressure was normal, one less thing to bother about, so am now free from medical procedures for the time being. Well the ex rang just before the usual time but no Chinese food (it's by the bus stop) so have to now wait for a delivery which adds well over half an hour, so will carry on writing this and anything else that I can think of. Now should the engineer come at the right time tomorrow I may be able to do my trip then but that will be a bonus. |
Reply #931. Apr 10 12, 2:31 PM
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I didn't get home till after 4am last night (pretty par for that particular course) and as I have two doorbells and a knocker (one bell is part of the door, and the other is one I can actually hear) I forgot to put a sticker on the bell to tell the engineer which one to use. Of course I got a message saying they came and I wasn't in (probably not their fault as only a 1/3 chance they'd get the right one without a sticker) and am now expecting a revisit in half an hour, please god. I don't want to waste another day sitting here doing nothing.
That said I hope the photo trip will materialise, and can then sit back having completed this week's mission. Meanwhile the year old memory card reader has finally given up, as I couldn't take it back to the shop as it's no longer there. That means I can only print photos by bringing the printer in the computer room and plugging it in and then taking it out again, which is a last resort. I'll have to get at least another card reader now and probably a new camera as two £30 cards have now been wrecked by it and can get a new camera for the price.
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Reply #932. Apr 11 12, 11:47 AM
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My list of remaining old road signs had been cut down to Harlow, a new town built in the late 1950s, a total maze and as a result made a road sign for far more places than anywhere else, and they are all still there. I'd marked eight on my map, and got there yesterday, and with a blocked road and a diversion I found another four on the way between them, and may be others which I'm now searching on the online map. So I got 12 photos of new signs for the collection, printed them all out and can now sew up another project except for looking for more.
Then I saw Grace to sort out a long term problem I've been helping her with which seems to be coming close to a solution, and when I compare her with some of the women I see she isn't so bad after all. I leave such things to fate, and as it was her who kept coming back to me then that itself was out of my hands. The work involved looking will never be reflected by results, it's not just me but most relationships just happen and you can join as many groups as you want and just meet a load of nothing.
So a few long photo trips left now and with my father out of action with his back that side is currently on hold, I'm doing most myself but he may have done one or two to spread the load for me while he did more than half last year. I've pretty well used up all the trips from his house over the river now as done pretty much one a week for many months, as the coast is the limit going south and reached it twice. East means driving through the suburbs for an hour before hitting tiny complex webs of minor roads that don't really go anywhere, one did and I've used it and there's nothing else which I could get anywhere significant for a couple of hours minimum. But I'll leave it to the system and see if new ideas (or road signs) turn up as I'm still looking that way.
So I'm free anyway, just written yet another article and adding to the pile gathering dust, although the only one ever published was four years old and used when the time was ready. Maybe I should spend my time networking now I have a portfolio as I suspect 90% of the ones I'd sent out weren't actually read so nothing to do with the quality or content. I think that's everything and if so will only repeat myself thinking of any more... |
Reply #933. Apr 13 12, 6:35 PM
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There's one problem with collecting, once you near the end the final jobs are often the most demanding and when complete you've got to find something else instead. Coming south for the weekend as I usually do I've completed the trips from here simply as after 50 miles south you hit the coast and that's it. I've gone the same distance in the other directions SE and SW and don't really feel like taking my little car much further as it's darn slow. There is a sign some way east of last time, and if I feel like it can always go there and may even tomorrow as Sundays are for Kent as there's no traffic getting through the suburbs.
Looking back I've now completed the road signs within reasonable reach after 12/13 in Harlow, considering I only knew about eight randomly driving past the others was a near miracle, as the roads I didn't use only found a single example after finishing streetview. My new track of not focusing on the bad news (I'll pass it on if I fall over it but not making it my work now, mainly as I've done all I could) and hope the freedom from depressing research will allow my spiritual and creative work to take over again. And a woman should any exist who are suitable. As the last one for sure was in 1975 followed by a close call in 1992 I am wondering.
It's a good test to trust the system. It's got me here so far so ought to keep me roughly in the right direction. Kent hopefully. |
Reply #934. Apr 14 12, 6:30 PM
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I was inspired the night before when I realised the route I'd taken two weeks earlier led to the sign I wanted in the sticks, and as a bonus saw a short cut to get there without even using the A25 (someone will know what I mean). I whizzed there and back (a couple of wrong turns but just sent me in a complete square), got one of the rarest signs I know (only my second) and beat my east record by 5 km (how they measure it as it uses the decimal system) into the bargain. So major job done and now pretty well cleared up all the direction signs.
So the week ahead is up to me, although with various visitors would be hard pushed to go anywhere important, but as I just did then no real need to. Biggleswade won't go anywhere (some would be pleased if it did) and no doubt other things will pop up one way or the other and maybe do it next week. That's about it really, no major loose ends and can just let whatever happens happen. I'm still able to ignore the news while still listening to it, and a website said exactly the same thing last week. It's saving me a lot of trouble as well and will also need to try and get the latest article around while I think about it. If not I may even post it here, at least people will read it. |
Reply #935. Apr 16 12, 7:17 PM
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I did a non stop road video today which may have avoided the errors creeping in if stopping and starting encourages them, and after managing to get the tripod fixed came back to find an inch of dashboard stuck in the way of the window, but just have to live with it. It was a nice route and hope it hasn't spoiled it too much. As I'm working on Thursday if I want a photo trip it'll probably be tomorrow, and see what happens. I can always call my friend if I'm going to be late.
It's good to have freedom now, no more road signs to go and get unless I find more, but do feel a bit lost without that many people around to share it with. The ex is in a bad mood today and moaning at me more than usual, otherwise everything is as normal, I wiped my camera memory after making sure the photos were on the computer already and saved myself some money there now it's all working again. I also wiped my DVD and got it on the RW+ so shouldn't need to spend packets on them now I can back them up and use them again although at least one has an error and won't copy.
I will trust the system ahead, I've seen enough of things fitting together to suspect whatever I do it'll get me wherever I need to be, and often the less I do the more that happens. People assume life's like an exam and you need to do the exact amount of work and right answers before you earn anything, but in fact everything in life is the opposite except exams. Meeting friends and women, getting work and other career aims are really not effort based at all besides simply making the application, so if you meet a nice woman or hear about some work you like you make an offer, but then again how many of these things do you get as other people make the offer for you? I'd say many of the things we all have now besides our qualifications are more from chance than planning, I got my last job when someone left my friend's shop and I'd had nothing for a year after leaving college and he asked me if I wanted to work there. That was the longest time I've ever spent in a job and although it became tedious towards the end as so many customers treated us like idiots it was no real trouble at all. I applied for about 150 jobs prior to that one and had three interviews. I'd say the main thing is get the exams out of the way and then follow your hearts. The more you like your work the better it is, and wherever you go you'll always meet people and can't really arrange single members of the opposite sex to be suitable even if you spend every weekend at singles events. Most are there and still single for very good reasons and wherever you live after a few you'll find pretty much the same hard core crowd you'll see if you go back a year or two later. So many people think I'm disorganised and lazy, but sure I get no less this way than I did when I tried to get things directly which really don't seem to be achievable that way. |
Reply #936. Apr 17 12, 6:34 PM
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I really get myself hooked into my hobbies and collections, although last week I did two photo trips including quite a good one beyond my record east I don't like getting out of the rhythm. This week had only one day free, today. Of course I got back 4am after taking the ex home and although I got up in time to go somewhere I've done everything now with only 30 mile plus trips left. Although I've got a friend coming at 8 I could have made it back in time but as it was an all or nothing situation I just couldn't be bothered. So my plan B was just to see what happened. So far I've just been doing a bit of long awaited housework and catching up with online research which has provided a couple of items this week I needed a few hours to see.
It's pretty much a test really to see if whatever possible guidance is present has meant me to get something better today, as with years of evidence this guidance is real, in both my life and many others, it's more than enough to accept something is going on. But regardless of a single day (although it represents most of a whole week) I have a huge collection behind me. Besides direction signs there are a few rare warning signs about 40 miles due north on what we call round here a broch of a journey. I've done it many times before but doesn't make it any better. But besides what is an optional extra I now have all know directions in London, three in North Kent (no more known), all in Surrey, all in Hertfordshire, 12/13 in Harlow (as I only found one the next day online) and one in Hampshire, and no more known in any of those places. Almost half are gone now since I took them, and took me 4 1/4 years in total from January 2008 onwards. I'm now just taking photos to extend my map coverage, so of course each trip makes the further ones harder until I've run out. If by some miracle I'm up early and manage it on Friday I can get one in and go to my mother's a bit later, and if so that will be the solution for this week. I'ts a good challenge to go to bed early and will see, I think I have one I can get in and come back past where she lives. |
Reply #937. Apr 18 12, 10:44 AM
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Why am I here? After a drought was announced last week it's hardly stopped raining, and I haven't left the house since Tuesday. I had a friend here last night and working in an hour but as a result the kitchen is tidy and the recycling has been put in its bag if nothing else. Having been on the road twice a week for a few weeks it's not such a bad thing having a few days off and am ready for the next one as soon as I get a chance.
At least there's been a lot more on TV so not tied to the computer (it's usually possible to find something as we all know), and just seen a pop video with an old friend of mine who joined a model agency at over 50 and got the job straight away. I went to drama classes and had two agents in a row and the total of a single audition in about 5 years. Go figure. I'm sure whatever needs doing will be done whatever the delays or diversions, if you are stopped from doing whatever you've planned there should be something more important you needed to do instead. |
Reply #938. Apr 19 12, 10:36 AM
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I really must learn to diversify. Although I did a long trip on Sunday I'm aiming for two a week till they're done, but was too busy to get a second one, did a road trip video on Tuesday with a bit of dashboard included, and apart from rain most of the time barely left the house. I should manage another on Sunday but have been getting withdrawal symptoms.
Now if my life (and all really) really are guided we do have to look for it most of the time- if I'm not doing what I wanted to I should have been diverted to something better. Not sure there. But I'm not alone there, having read a report of pretty much exactly the same sort of things happening to someone else, and anyone who's familiar with it will recognise it in anyone else. Nothing to do with belief, once you experience something it has to be accepted.
I'll be happy after the next trip anyway, as there was nothing else to distract me this week, like someone publishing an article or a new/old/alive woman, and the best news was the UK Independence Party actually overtook the Liberals for 3rd place in the opinion polls. People are finally learning, a little anyway. I'm still ignoring the bad news (it's over a week now, and not hard at all) and wonder how long the point will come when I'd rather have Grace around than no one, although I'd already done my best to persuade her to stay here sometimes with no results.
I think I've covered everything, and hopefully not as in manure, and reminding myself if there's nothing else to do it means it's time I meditate, which has got sidelined by the internet although learnt a lot more from it so made an overall profit. |
Reply #939. Apr 20 12, 6:13 PM
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It's been a different week, and for some reason was more tired doing hardly anything which is probably a coincidence. I had visitors every day except yesterday when I did go out, half work related, and am planning the last trip to Kent tomorrow to break the drought. I've scoured the map for more trips to follow and with any luck manage a really long one as well before the clocks go back.
Every so often people still try to encourage me to find a woman. It's been so long I always forget why after a while and now I'm even beginning to forget when I did. All I know is things are usually better when I am, but I had to write that down somewhere to remind me. Internet dating they say. Like last time? When I spent 2 years on the phone and email and eventually met someone who was taken away after less than 2 months without notice? I even tried again when that was over (she came back and we carried on but it was never the same) and met possibly the most miserable woman I've come across in my life and ended up with the car being locked up as we left it for too long and had to call a caretaker to let us out. I suppose speed dating is technically the best new idea although when it started they were only in the centre of London, and besides the cost you won't meet anyone nearby if you go into town. I don't even know if they do them here now or it's all gone quiet, but the last ad I saw the prices have tripled. Maybe I'm better off organising them and taking the money instead which is a lot more reliable. Every year that passes makes Grace a better prospect, it's like having a go on the dire Deal or No Deal but no known alternative to the offer at all. Take 75p and you could get nothing or a million pounds instead. OK, maybe £100, I really don't know.
I don't think I'm lazy or reckless doing what comes naturally, ie doing my usual things and seeing who I meet as I do. The singles scene over 30 is so restricted you either get the same people locally or the same type of people if you join somewhere, ie peculiar. OK, presumably I must be included in that, but you still see it in others. Bitter and twisted is a large section if divorced, while the single ones are usually so socially inadequate they make it quite clear why they are within a fairly short time. I'm sure some qualities (or the lack of) put most people off, rudeness, utter misery like the last one, judgemental (like the one who compared me with every other man in the pub for 2 hours on our blind date). To me once you reach about 18 you're pretty well stuck as you are and people should either accept you or not bother. And any woman so concerned with surface changes can't really be worth much as a catch as as soon as you changed your clothes she'd dump you, or worse still lost your hair. But I don't worry about it any more, you can use up all your effort and I've put in enough for a lifetime already in that area.
Meanwhile the equally unlikely but differently arranged article selling is in place, I have a growing collection and considering my first success was both someone I knew (nearly always is) and one I'd written four years earlier means producing your collection and then waiting to see if there's a buyer is the best method. Also it gives you time to work out ways to get to know new contacts and other routes in, as I'm sure they're adequate for publication but it's almost a closed system. But it's still easier than meeting the right woman. |
Reply #940. Apr 21 12, 5:10 PM
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