Jazmee27 
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I just had a revelation:
There's a ruthlessness inside me which I never knew was there
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Reply #2341. Dec 03 12, 10:06 PM
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| lesley153
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Not a bad thing to find! and a very good thing if it helps the team, and helps you run it.
Reply #2342. Dec 04 12, 10:03 AM
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Jazmee27
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| The other day, a teammate posted on the team board to say she was leaving because "I let it [Funtrivia] become a duty instead of a pleasure." Now we're at 47 :( |
Reply #2343. Dec 05 12, 1:08 AM
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Jazmee27
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Oh, great--bad news really *does* come in threes :(
It finally dawned on me last night that my toilet was running. It doesn't do it all the time, and for the moment I can make it stop, but maintenance have been called.
Guess I forgot about the problem when I was dealing with that "woman issue of nuissance"
Funny how it's always the accumulation of things that get to people most.
Yesterday, I scrached my foot as it was itching: (1) I overdid it, and (2) turns out I was sensing.
Today, I'm tired, butI know enough to realize that I'm still in shock after Mom's bad news and more sad than anything else.
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Reply #2344. Dec 05 12, 8:56 AM
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Jazmee27
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Got one to replace her (actually, we got two)
Mom's got a holiday party at work, so has to be there at least till five (she put in a request to be let out early, otherwise she'll have to be there till nine).
Michael's picking Mom and Rob up for the funeral, so he and Grandma and them will be in the same car. I apologized for not going, but we all agree that it would be different if it were closer.
I haven't heard from Tiffany yet, but I'm hoping her surgery went well and that she feels well enough to come down for a few hours tomorrow.
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Reply #2345. Dec 07 12, 11:19 AM
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Jazmee27
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Oops... forgot to add that I spoke to Eric last night, and he's attending the Christmas dinner at the Country Club that I am
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Reply #2346. Dec 07 12, 11:21 AM
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Jazmee27
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Tiff's coming between nine and ten
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Reply #2347. Dec 08 12, 6:34 AM
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Jazmee27
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Writers collaborate on drama, bounce ideas off each other
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Reply #2348. Dec 10 12, 12:47 PM
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Jazmee27
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Mom's going to be home late again tonight :(
She was over last night to read a handful of Christmas cards and help me fill out Wellness Program paper
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Reply #2349. Dec 12 12, 4:31 PM
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Jazmee27
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Lost another member who came to Purple Ninjas because not enough people were playing the team games on his other team :(
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Reply #2350. Dec 16 12, 3:11 PM
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Jazmee27
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I wanted to make Mom a tape of my piano music. Only, I can't as the only recorder I have only picks up "white noise." This is the one where I damaged the connector to the external microphone (and, apparently, the internal's useless). :(
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Reply #2351. Dec 17 12, 11:08 AM
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Jazmee27
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Happy holidays, all :)
Mom brought over my clean clothes, then left for the grocery store. Grandma's coming over tomorrow... and, as an added bonus, (being facetious here) the forecast is for sleet, rain and snow
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Reply #2352. Dec 23 12, 2:05 PM
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Jazmee27
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| Turned heater on, because Mom commented on how cold it was (and if Mom's cold, it's cold) [she asked if I had a window open, and if not why it was so cold... time to heat the place up--assuming this oldthing can do that] |
Reply #2353. Dec 23 12, 3:18 PM
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Jazmee27
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Speaking of "old," the plumbing in this building is so old it's not even funny [every now and then, the commode *still* runs for a second or two :( after *three* maintenance visits]
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Reply #2354. Dec 23 12, 3:21 PM
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Jazmee27
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Whatever was I thinking
When I blurted out that thought,
I didn’t even mean it;
It’s just not who I am.
I heard the shock in her tone,
And then I really felt it;
And I was forced to ask,
“What is the matter with me?”
Although there’s no excuse
For saying what I said,
There’s always an explanation;
And that’s what I sought right then.
What I came up with left me feeling
So much worse than before,
For it meant I had reacted
To a fear out of the past.
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Reply #2355. Dec 28 12, 9:43 PM
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Jazmee27
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I have a fear of being hurt,
Of feeling the mental anguish
That I have known
For far too long;
And so I alienate
Before I’m alienated once more.
Memory tears my insides,
Causing me to act
In ways I don’t realize
Until after the fact;
Then I feel bad,
And wonder how I
Can avoid doing it again.
It’s hard to apologize,
Harder still to forgive;
But, I figure now,
If she can accept my apology,
If she can forgive,
Then why can’t I
Forgive myself,
So healing can begin?
I came so close
To hurting those
I care about the most,
Their pain was but a moment,
But mine is here to stay;
I want to let go,
But it’s not that simple:
My heart rebels against me.
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Reply #2356. Dec 28 12, 9:44 PM
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Jazmee27
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No New Year's Party this year
Mom's construction project :(
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Reply #2357. Dec 31 12, 8:34 AM
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Jazmee27
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On the bright side, got my boombox last night :)
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Reply #2358. Dec 31 12, 8:35 AM
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bloodandsand
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Hope you have a great New Year, Jazmee :)
Reply #2359. Dec 31 12, 2:18 PM
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Jazmee27
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Thank you, Bev, and happy 2013 to all :)
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Reply #2360. Dec 31 12, 11:20 PM
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