How much worse can it get?
Don't answer that, please. I don't think I want to know. I have so much riding on the next week or so that I can't possibly find out how much worse it can all get. Here's today's drama. Basically, my love married an insane, psychotic, sorry excuse for a human being the first time around. SInce said psycho is also the mother of his daughter, she's using every trick in the book and a few new ones to keep him there and misearable. She's got a new boyfriend (engaged for 8 years!), why does she need to ruin his life? One of the court appointed idiots has decided that we should put things off for another six months. The other court appointed guy says no, we should do this now. They have the final hearing next week. Now, here's what burns my buns. The first court appointed idiot has never spoken to me, the second one has. The first one is making assumptions based on nothing at all. I am so angry I could spit nails. I'm also terrified and depressed. So, the how much worse can it get really is rhetorical. I don't want to know. Oh, and get this, I am just livid right now. Her crazy solicitor wants me to skip work most of next week just in case they need to ask me anything. They just sprung this today. It can't happen and I know that'll just look bad on us, but for cryin' out loud, what am I to do? Less than a week's notice and I"m supposed to just bail out on my job when they've had months to ask? Did I mention I could spit nails right about now? Why does she feel the need to ruin everyone's life just to make herself feel better?
On top of that, we'll be losing the blogs soon and I won't be able to vent like this anymore. The virtual blogas are ok, but I feel so much more comfortable here. I don't know what I'll do when they go away and I have no support system left. It's not like me to show this much of myself and I'm sorry. This is the only place I've been able to vent or talk about this at all. I just want to curl up in a little ball and wake up when this is all over. I used to believe that I'd never be thrown anything I couldn't handle, I seriously doubt that now. I can't handle the lunacy of this whole thing. I can't handle the not knowing. I wish I could just take a peek in to the future and see what's going to happen.
Terry, one small favor if you happen to see this, please let us keep the blogs just a bit longer? I don't know what I'll do without mine.
On top of that, we'll be losing the blogs soon and I won't be able to vent like this anymore. The virtual blogas are ok, but I feel so much more comfortable here. I don't know what I'll do when they go away and I have no support system left. It's not like me to show this much of myself and I'm sorry. This is the only place I've been able to vent or talk about this at all. I just want to curl up in a little ball and wake up when this is all over. I used to believe that I'd never be thrown anything I couldn't handle, I seriously doubt that now. I can't handle the lunacy of this whole thing. I can't handle the not knowing. I wish I could just take a peek in to the future and see what's going to happen.
Terry, one small favor if you happen to see this, please let us keep the blogs just a bit longer? I don't know what I'll do without mine.
10 Comments:
Hope all goes well for you and your fiancé. His ex seriously needs to get out of the picture. The only thing she should remotely be around for is if (I stress if) he has to pay child support. If not, she can get out of the picture. This will be yours and his lives to live, and she needs to respect that.
By dg_dave, May 02 07 8:44 PM
Of course. I'm in no hurry.
By Terry, May 02 07 8:57 PM
Hang in there; we're all behind you!
If you're interested, there's a petition on my blog. Maybe (just maybe)...
By bionic4ever, May 02 07 9:01 PM
I wish there was some magic words to make you feel better. I wish there was a way to keep these blogs...yes, you hit it right...these makes us feel "safe". I had learned in therapy that writing things out is a huge help...especially when you have a support group who cares.
Its too bad that theres people in this world who arent happy unless they are making someone unhappy. This goes on more than you realize. I am sorry its happening to you. I am at a loss for words. It makes things worse when theres a child/children involved. It sounds like they have the same kind of lawyers there that we have here. Few are good, but most are in it for the buck and dont care.
I wish you well, and I hope something works for you because you dont deserve all thats been happening. I certainly hope that Terry will let us keep our blogs. Maybe he doesnt realize how much this has helped those who needs it.
Big hugs to you sweet lady. ~Joanie~
By joaniem, May 02 07 9:07 PM
Thank you everyone and especially Terry. This next little bit is crucial and I'm feeling it like nobody's business.
Dave, he doesn't pay child support because he has custody. She doesn't pay because she has no job. Hasn't for over 10 years actually. And she doubts my ability to provide? Pot, kettle would like a few words with you.
Thank you all again for your words of support. They mean more to me than any of you will ever imagine. Who needs Soap Operas? My life is one. The Youngish and the Half Crazy is the title.
By IndieQueen, May 02 07 9:18 PM
I'm speechless love..just hang in there as you have been...keep spitting the nails out too... if you swallow them, they;ll gather in your appendix and then you;ll need to have it out..(lame attempt to make you smile.. without using words like, bat, delores and snorky.) xxxx
By kells40, May 02 07 11:44 PM
Indie I hope you are on tonight, you are corrdially invited to ASHMANCOMETHS blog, there is a cruise planned on Das Blog Cruise Lines Post and you are invited to be the entertainment, you will be a virtual singer. Please consider the invitation, all shows are formal. The cruise leaves tomorrow at 11:00am, and you have been invited to join the Captain at his table. You are the only singer scheduled, we copuld have mutiny if you say no.
By Ashmancometh, May 03 07 1:34 AM
Sorry, James I was so angry I took a really long walk just to rid myself of nervous energy.
I'll be there though. I promise. I'm not much of a singer, but I'll do my best. Wouldn't want a mutiny.
I think one of those nails got stuck. When I'm upset, I have reflux issues and this morning it feels like my chest is on fire. Hmmmm, snorky, that word still makes me giggle.
By IndieQueen, May 03 07 7:19 AM
I don't think many people (besides us hard core bloggers) realised how much they appreciated them till they were threatened to go. It's one thing blogging on a public site but here we know most people who read it and know we can trust and rely on them. OK, I know it got quiet but it doesn't seem so quiet now does it?
I'm sure all your problems will get sorted out Indie, the details are always stressful but there's little more you can do until they sort it out so stop worrying about it! Just my bit of interference!
By satguru, May 03 07 8:25 AM
My wife (now of 30 years) was previously married and had a 3 year old when we met. When she got her divorce (which took nearly 4 years to get through the courts etc) she made the deal with her ex of no maintenance or child support (thats what clinched the deal) ever in return for no access. This has worked out brilliantly for all of us. I have since officially adopted our daughter (no objection whatsoever from the ex). Our daughter asked to meet her biological dad when she was 14. We arranged for this to happen and the only thing she wanted to know was why he showed no interest in her. Since this initial meeting she has never shown any further interest and is still a happy well adjusted person who is is the mother of our 3 wonderful grandchildren.
Just hang in there, thing will work out for the best for you. I know it can be difficult but love does conquer all in the end.
Take Care
David
PS I may not have my own blog as I am not a particularly eloquent writer, but I do enjoy reading what others have to say and occacionally commenting on other's writings. Please keep them available.
By davidmrae, May 03 07 6:24 PM