I hate it, I hate it
Why do I get sucked up into all of this stupid high school crap? I hate drama. Most of you know that. Still, somehow I get trapped in it. But this really isn't drama. It's something more real than that. And somehow, it's worse.
I like him. I like him alot. And I spotted several hints that said that he might like me back. But from past experiences, I really shouldn't be surprised, since he told me today that he doesn't feel the same. And really, I'm not. What's there to like? But still, I feel terrible. And something tells me - maybe he's lying, maybe he's lying - but how am I supposed to believe that? I should just ignore it. It's probably just my mind trying to console my heart.
So here I am, listening to "Emergency" by Paramore as loud as it will go and trying to forget that once again, it's another year of me being not good enough.
2 Comments:
I don't blame you, I hate the drama too. Never sure what is right or what figurativly speaking could be left. I've given up for the time being. I'm paying attention to school work and what makes me me. Not much else we can do.
By gonehorsey101, Aug 31 07 5:18 PM
I hesitantly offer a bit of advice here - as one who has survived high school and much more...you don't need the companionship of somebody who won't level with you. You must take him at his word at this point, painful though it seems. Someday a real stand up guy will come along to claim you and want to tell the world about it. That's how you tell the difference in 'worth it' and 'NOT worth it.' My heart goes out to you in the meantime. You are most assuredly worth it.
By ktstew, Sep 07 07 3:32 PM