A lack of confidence.
While we were at Dragonfest, Jason mentioned that I was more confident up there. I told him not to get used to it, it wouldn't last. Well, I was right. I can't seem to do much of anything without questioning it. Most of the things I think of end up with the resulting thought of "What's the point?". When I tell people that I didn't do anything with my days their response is generally "Well that's good". No it's not. How many days in a row can you go without the motivation do really do anything? Or if there is an idea of something that should be done, there's still the thoughts of "Why? It won't make any difference". I'll start something and then end up throwing up my hands a short time later or just go look at something I think should be done and then think "why? what if I do it wrong? what will it matter whether it's done or not, ect". I get bored out of my mind and wander the house, picking up things, moving them to another spot but not really doing anything.
Sorry I'm just kinda low today. Hope everyone is well.
P.S. - my Rockies are getting stomped.
5 Comments:
I want to give you a hug but not sure how to do so....
Hug..hug..hug..hug..hug..hug..hug.....
We all go through times of self-questioning.
Hug..hug..hug..hug..hug..hug..hug....
Sorry that this is the best I can do to hug you. :|
By Deunan, Oct 07 09 3:40 PM
Thanks Deunan, hugs always help.
By rayven80, Oct 07 09 4:07 PM
Nope, you definitely don't have a monopoly on feeling like that. I look at everything that needs done outside. It used to be my job to keep the flower beds cleaned, collecting seeds from this years flowers for next year flowers, digging out unwanted weeds, raking, etc. Now my husband is doing more and more of the work. I just don't seem to be able to do all the work I once did. I used to spend the whole day doing yardwork and I loved it.
By honeybee4, Oct 07 09 5:03 PM
How much of it's coming from you, and how much is bounced back off the people around you? I can't help wondering if, as long as you're working with and for incompetents, and your family take your contributions for granted, you're likely to feel less motivated than you would if your efforts were greeted with universal, unequivocal appreciation and approval. Jason, take note!
Just a thought, but it's probably not as simple as that. Nothing much ever is. Have a hug or ten. (((((())))))
By lesley153, Oct 07 09 7:27 PM
Thanks for the hugs. I'm not sure what the reasons are for this round but I'm hoping it will change soon. I'm getting better at hiding this mood. Not sure if that's good or bad. Oh well, at the moment the Rockies are willing, it's snowing and I'm curling up with hot chocolate.
Thanks again all, it helps.
By rayven80, Oct 08 09 2:30 PM