Have You Ever...
Noticed that there are just some days you wake up so disgusted and you have no idea why?
Unforuntately, I know why I feel this way, between FT and things happening at work, my head is spinning, and yet I tell myself I really do not care, but in fact I think I care too much....if that makes any sense!
Why is it that some can just get on your nerves so fast, and then it just tumbles all down from there? I wish it wouldn't happen, but it does.
Between my medical issues, plus that fact that my doctor told me I am starting the process of changing life...at 39?! Yikes! He told me it is a ten year process, so by the time I am 52 years old, the change will be total.
I have a fly off the handle type temper, and this is definitely not something that I need...at least not right now!
Then my fortieth birthday is a few months away, and that does not make feel any better, but I have resigned myself to the fact that I will soon be forty, and whomever thinks that I am too old, well tough luck for them!
I really, really do not like the fact that all this weird stuff is happening to me, but ah, well nothing I can do about it.
Life goes on....
4 Comments:
Could it be that you just don't suffer fools gladly?
Too old? At 40? Stars and comets, Agnes. You are just a youngster. 40 is a number, not a state of mind.
Please do not get on your case simply because you take pride in what you do and responsibility for your actions. Frankly, my dear, we need more people just like you.
Yes, there are a few people in this world who can push my buttons just right and I "flame". I learn more every day how to disconnect these buttons. I am in charge of how I act and react.
As for the change of life...all I can say it is not the same for every woman. Mine occurred at 49 and the only thing I noticed is the Aunt who visited monthly (and never brought flowers or candy) no longer arrives. Joy! Other than that, no differences. Oh, I am mistaken...I am more beautiful than ever.
If you feel the need to fly off the handle, feel free. You know my name, where I usually hang out and I promise to not take anything personally. You could even throw cyber dishes if that would help.
I know you are a very busy woman, but have you ever tried yoga or meditation or just learning to tune everything out? There is also obtaining a tennis racket or a golf club and a sturdy pillow and beating the stuffing right out of it.
Good luck, my friend. You know where we are if you need us.
Now, chin up and face forward...I suspect you are far stronger than you realize.
By talentedone, Sep 19 08 6:42 AM
Last week my daughter, 42, had her first hot flash. She thought she was dying! I told her to get use to them.
By honeybee4, Sep 19 08 12:27 PM
Well, Agnes, I'm a few years behind you, but I already feel a lot of weird changes. It's odd, because in my mind I still feel like a kid. The things that made me laugh 10 years ago still make me laugh. I don't look a whole lot different. So, it's strange to realize that my body is not the same--no matter what my mind tells me!
By Pagiedamon, Sep 19 08 7:12 PM
Agnes, I wouldn't dream of pulling rank, and announcing that "When I were a lass, I had to walk six miles uphill in tight shoes to get to school, and six miles uphill to get home again," but, when I was your age... I was pregnant. Just thought I'd throw that in. :)
I don't like stereotypes either. Some women are bad-tempered, some women have hormone-induced bad temper and a hell of a lot don't. (Just like some men are short-tempered and some aren't.) It can happen, just like "baby blues" and post-natal depression, and all the other cheerful things people talk about, but it isn't guaranteed.
Nor are hot flushes. Sorry, Judy, but I've never had a hot flush, and I'm not likely to now, but I wish your daughter well coping with them. I did roughly the same as Mo. Monthly became yearly and then gave up. Nothing else changed really. Except I stepped up my inner beauty. (ROFL)
By lesley153, Sep 20 08 11:30 AM