You Don't Have To Read This
Really, you don't have to. There are just some thing going on
and it seems like it will help if I get everything written down somewhere. So, if you don't really
want to hear me blab on about my life and how terrible I feel right now, then just press the back
button. If you do, please understand that I'm not some selfish teen who is "going through a stage".
My life has always been like this and I'm not sure how much longer it WILL BE like this. Sorry to
sound all dramatic, but I'm so sick of it. I'm sick of riding a roller coaster because of a certain
person in my life. I'm sick of seeing everyone around me mistreated. I'm sick of being verbally
abused. I'm sick of it always seeming like that person always comes out on top and leaves the rest
of us at the bottom to drown in his cursing and screaming and alcohol. Most of all, I'm sick of
being afraid that something is going to happen. Because when things are going really bad, he sure
makes some terrible threats.
I know that I'm being very vague and all, but it's not something that I should be detailing to every person that happens upon this page. There are very few people who know what I'm dealing with, and only one person here on FunTrivia. It's hard to convey through words, but there are some terrible things happening in my family all of the time. But when it's all said and done, we end up having to put it behind us and pretend it never happened. As years and years go by, it gets harder to do that. I don't know how old I was when I realized that something wasn't right, but ever since then I've had an unfair amount of responsibility in my life.
Well, tomorrow everything will be back to normal and we can all just pretend that everything is fine. In a couple of months, I'll have forgotten I even wrote this. Then I'll end up writing the exact same thing again.
I know that I'm being very vague and all, but it's not something that I should be detailing to every person that happens upon this page. There are very few people who know what I'm dealing with, and only one person here on FunTrivia. It's hard to convey through words, but there are some terrible things happening in my family all of the time. But when it's all said and done, we end up having to put it behind us and pretend it never happened. As years and years go by, it gets harder to do that. I don't know how old I was when I realized that something wasn't right, but ever since then I've had an unfair amount of responsibility in my life.
Well, tomorrow everything will be back to normal and we can all just pretend that everything is fine. In a couple of months, I'll have forgotten I even wrote this. Then I'll end up writing the exact same thing again.
7 Comments:
It's OK. If you write it again, we'll read it again.
The things you 'vaguely' detail happen in so many families. Don't EVER think you are alone!
As soon as you are old enough, or capable enough, get out. You can keep in touch with those who had to stay, but you'll do everyone much more good, setting an example of how it could be, should be...
Best of luck.
By veronikkamarrz, Jun 29 09 10:18 PM
This doesn't sound like a " selfish teen stage" at all. You've painted a vivid picture of a classic abuse cycle.
Local people can tell you what help is available, and help you decide what your next move is, whether you get help or get out. Meanwhile, this is as good a place as any to let off steam.
((((()))))
By lesley153, Jun 30 09 2:17 AM
Thanks, both of you. So far things have settled down a little... guess we're going on up the hill of that emotional roller coaster again ;)
By chimpy6302, Jun 30 09 10:58 AM
Good for the time being. I think it's a given that these things will repeat themselves. Meanwhile, I hope that every new cycle leaves you stronger, not weakened, until you are in a position to do something about it yourself. While you're waiting, you'll find a lot of shoulders here.
By lesley153, Jun 30 09 3:42 PM
I hope everything will get better for you and the others in your family that have to put up with this person's abuse. It would be good if the person would seek help for anger and drinking management. There is not much we can do for you here except listen to you and be here for you. Please take care.
By honeybee4, Jun 30 09 7:36 PM
My heart goes out to you. I want you to know that I will be praying about your situation.
By Aku-Aku, Jul 06 09 9:56 PM
You are not alone. There are some people who can imagine on what you are going through and I am one of them. My grandfather is very abusive to the point where we have to fight and call the police and the verbal abuse is non stop to the point where it makes your head dizzy. The situation that you are going through will not get better only worse or just linger on for years and years until the victim explodes. My advice to you is to pray for protection and a way out for you and your loved ones and when the time comes for you to leave don't look back and don't feel bad about it because you will only make yourself sick and stressed in the end.
By christianlove, Jul 13 09 9:49 PM