Fall Break - times passes too quickly
I know we all have the same amount of time, but mine seems to escape me and I have failed to do things I enjoy lately. So, as I enter my third day of my quickly wanning fall break, I am already grieving its end. Five days off from teaching school is a lovely luxury. But, I have not used it well or wisely and its loss is one I will grieve as I look eagerly for the next break, which will be Thanksgiving. I fear that I am wishing my life away and I want to stop and I don't know how. It is something that I have always done that I dislike about myself. I want to be one of those people who 'lives in the moment.' I spend too much time in dread of what's to come or anticipation for some vague threat in the future. I also procrastinate the things that would give me peace, were they more quickly accomplished. So, here I am at Fun Trivia, a place I enjoy, where I haven't made time to be in quite some time. I admonish myself to spend more time and take the time on things I enjoy that affirm me and make me smile.
Today is the best day to do that. God's grace is entirely amazing.
Karen
10-17-09
6 Comments:
Good to see you back. Good question. It's easy to tell someone not to worry about things that may never happen - but how do you persuade them to try it?
Perhaps it depends what you worry about. The collapse of world civilisation as we know it, or monsters in the wardrobe.
By lesley153, Oct 17 09 10:01 AM
I tend to 'waste' my time off, as well. I know, if I spent a few hours scrubbing the floor, or cleaning the 'frige, I'd be able to relax with a light heart...But that never seems to happen! Instead, I go shopping, play at FT, or whatever else ISN"T work, and then I feel guilty until my next days off, promising myself to do better! Maybe this week! ;)
I'm happy to see you back, too!
By veronikkamarrz, Oct 17 09 11:56 AM
Its hard sometimes to be content, I think we are hardwired to be busy to insure survival and when we dont have to fight the dragon to live we get bored. So I make pretend dragons and just fight with them all day. Its good to hear from you.
By garrysouders, Oct 18 09 6:03 AM
Good to see you back Karen, and now you've spotted the habit all you do is drop the mind thinking about anything besides what you're doing now. You'll soon start doing it naturally as you've already decided you don't want to do it any more. Don't stay away so long next time!
By satguru, Oct 18 09 5:41 PM
I'm the Procrastination Queen, Karen forever completing tasks at the 11th hour but more likely on a need-to basis!
Don't Feel Guilty.
It's your free time - you've earned it!
I look around and there is always something to do - so I sweep the room with a glance, throw clothes in the dryer, make lists that include things I've Already Done (so I can cross some off!) and .....enjoy reading my book or escape with a friend for a walk or cake and coffee.
And I spend way too much time on FT....
But I walk out the door and close it, not thinking about what will greet me when I return and find I'm in a better frame of mind for my indulgence and thing's Do Get Done!
Thinking about All That Work is tiring in itself! :)
Enjoy your free hours - play FT, do anything that makes you feel happy and don't think of anything as Work!
Give Your Self Permission to 'run away' and have fun - Life's too short to not enjoy the journey :)
Nice to meet you! :)
By MarchHare007, Oct 18 09 10:59 PM
What if the purpose of this time off was for you to goof off?
How you spend your free time is entirely up to you. If you just enjoy the day and do little, so be it.
I, too, spend a great deal of time on Fun Trivia. That is fine as well.
:)
By Deunan, Oct 21 09 5:19 PM