this is weird. I don't know what to say. Well, that's mondays for you. NOTHING GOES RIGHT. I hope tommorrow will be better....but I doubt it. It's a big scary world out there. Wow. Random.

Yes, it's true. I have returned from my pacific northwest adventure. Oregon, Cali and 11 hours in the car with my family. Some of it was pretty cool, but I won't bore you with all the specifics. Here's the dirt from my trip.

Hey peoples!

I'm finally getting a chance to write again. My relatives left...and to my astonishment I found out that I really like my aunt, it's my grandmother I don't really get along with. My aunt helped me paint my new room and life moves on.

Well I'm back (again!!) just when I was allowed to do internet again I got sick and my mother was following me around with a can of Lysol (spelling??) it was sucky I had a 102 fever and was horrible. I was kind of mad when I wrote my last post...it wasn't a huge deal, they didn't do the best job and Shadow being persistent still was climbing the screen. I survived though my relatives really annoy me. No offense to you all but they are so touristy. I mean they buy all the novelty mugs and have these weird ideas. I shouldn't be too harsh just because they are clueless. I just get really fed up sometimes and want to lash out but I don't because I know as soon as they leave my mother will kill me for it....I survive....yet barely...I remain.... GINGIE ;)

This is crazy and maybe wrong...but I'll tell you guys any way. My relatives are in town, my grandmother and aunt from my moms side. Lets just say I am less than happy with what there doing. I was surviving and acctually having fun... untill this morning. I got up really sleepy and do what I do every day. I ask about my cat----to explain my cat is very important to me, I have lost many pets to the hyway and hold on to Shadow as much as I can. He is pure black with really sharp claws from hunting birds mice and everything----anyway I find out this morining that guess what my aunt decided to do while I was asleep. Yes she clipped his claws. Why am I mad aobut this. A-because he's my cat and no one bothered to consult me and B. He spends alot of time outside., everyday to be exact and these claws are very important. In hunting and if he runs into another cat. yes I'm angry, he is my baby kitten (though he is quite large) and I don't like others doing anything with him when I haven't said it's okay. Am I being crazy? --Gingie--

Yes after too long I have time to write agian *horray!!*. As always my life is insane and boring at the same time, and includes my mom freaking out!! My older brothers graduateing on Saturday and guess who gets to take over his room when he is gone!! Thats right, your truely. So anywayz, I have this issue... like I may have stated before I am a girl on the boys soccer team for long and complicated reasons...but on tuesday there was wet cement at the park that just so happend to not be completely fenced off. I'll give you three guesses about who left prints and wrote in it and the first 4 don't count. (did you get that??) yes, the boys on my team. I warned them...though not as strongly as I should have that they would get caught...and of course they did...now the cops are involved and it's a whole mess. another insane tryial. oh and of course I did not write in it.. thank god. Biggest news of the week...till next time...I remain... GiNgIe

 That isn't really serious though I'm sure people all around the world do get bored. Well my birthday is over, and I'm used to my new age now. Though my school is in an insane time. Our really really late May Day is tomorrow, so we aren't really doing much work, but that's cool. I am killer bored because...I always am. Hope you are all doing good and aren't as bored as me.     Sorry but my brain is in a coma at the moment.

 

                                           BYE BYE

                                                  Ak.

So people, it's true my birthday is over, on Saturday I celebrated with my teammates and then family, and honestly the funnest thing was that we won are game by alot. Alot , like 10-0 alot. Being a year older is acctually pretty cool, though I haven't gotten used to saying my new age yet. I got money, giftcards, clothes, and candy (naturally), but thats not important. Another year older, and closer to my grave, I say, but never mind that.

 

Moving  on..

 

Yes, school is almost over, for those of us who haven't graduated yet, only a few more weeks of slow torture left, my school is about to change to year around school so we get out on June 7th  and go back on July 27th, so that is sucky. I have to write a paper about the immigration issues for school, which isn't that hard, but it is a really big issue to everyone right now, especially to states that are on the border. How am I a poor child that has lived her whole life on an island able to make decisions about such a lofty issue...oh well...I try.

 

                                              ...another year completed.....I remain....

                                                                                                           ...Gingie

Well, my birthday is tomorrow, and I will naturally be playing my soccer game on it. I don't know what it is about Birthdays that makes me feel thoughtful, I've lived my life these years, and most of what I know is basiclly meaningless. I know I can tell you some usefull facts such as there are 2.54 centimeters in an inch and other horrible things that school has taught me, but what do I really know, in the larger sceme of things? What does anyone know in the larger sceme of things? I guess scientists and religous people have idea but for religous people it's based on faith right? Okay that is too deep for me.

                                                untill next time...I remain,

                                                              Gingie ;)

 

 

You know how judgemental people are today, is what anyone does good enough. Being "nice", sometimes I try, but I'm starting to see it's pointless. Why do you all judge me or anyone else you see, okay it's just a natural reflex but come on, I am sick of it. Here me sick!! But no one will care that I've said this and in three second's they'll say, this isn't worth reading!! I'm sorry, but it's just how I feel I won't soften it for you. So if you are too judgemental: Well than I say STOP. Think about other's for once. And while I'm going people, you have to think about what you do, and also what your saying and how it could hurt the other people. I see alot of hurt people around.

 

Even though no one will read this,

 

                         I remain....

 

                                Gingie

All that I sacrifice, all that it means,

in the sake of friendship,

and kindness.

Let my self go,

as long as there is no conflict,

I'll be the whipping girl.

 

But no,

I can't not anymore.

It's over,

that's the way it just has to be.

I can't sit back and watch this horrible scene.

No I can't,

can't stand to be the whipping girl.

 

 

 

 

Whatever it all means:

 

Gingie

 

BORED!!!!  Yes, 5 days to Gingie's b-day! Horay for me, I am taking friends to Hilo. But besides that I'm completely bored, the only thing I can do is tease 403_Soccer about weird dreams, cause I am that bored!! Yes, mother's day was yesterday but we didn't go to the mother's day party that we were invited to, sad cause I heard it was reallly fun, poor me (kidding!). Hope everyone out there is happier than me, though that's not saying much, 'till later, I remain, (sadly)

 

                      GINGIE

Yes, the Haiku contest sucked, the judges are dumb, but 403_Soccer won, so congrats there. Unfortunatley T also won with what I consider a weird haiku, all the judges like are dogs and surfing 'cause that's what most of them were about. I guess surfing really matters to where we live and all but come on does it always have to be about the ocean, I think these HEA contest's are weird, but really who cares? Haiku is my least favorite kind of poetry, it's just so confining, our school did good, but hey it doesn't really matter that much. Our teachers are always getting us involved in these kinds of projects and I'm kind of sick of it, but hey the teachers just want to get recognized in the teacher world... enough about school!!

 

Tomorrow I have the horrible soccer game, I got new shoes to stop getting blisters because they were too small, but now my new shoes give me blister's cause there loose. Life plods on as I boringly write, and write and write. Here is an example: 

 

Shadow

A single shadow,

on a snowy plain.

Clear skies,

no chance of rain.

These simple things we see each day,

and yet never wonder,

if they'll stay.

 

 

GINGIE

 

 

 

I think I have experienced one of the most crybaby acts in my life, and I've known some crybabys. This 6th grader in my school acctually cryed today because someone pushed her bag into the hall, how lame is that? You should have seen my other friend try to pay this boy off to stomp on the same bag, yes my friends are mean, but anyway beyond crying she TOLD the counsler on my friend, well she thought it was me, but it wasn't. This girl  "A" loves to tell on people for any little thing. Do you have any idea how many times I've found my stuff in the hall, so not worth crying over. That is the most annoying thing in my life at the moment, not near the worst. I am a girl on the boys soccer team and we have to play the 16 year old boys this Saturday, though it may have some girls on the team, and even worse my aunt, uncle, and grandmother are gonna come here for my brother "R"'s graduation, so I'm pretty much just feeling sorry for myself, un healthy I know.  SIGH ----GINGIE

The looming question is why can't I eat the salad they serve in school, even though they have tried to make it better with "good" dressing and all, and well I have figured it out (Taa-daa!) It's not about whether it taste's like barf or not, it is school salad, how many times can I throw up before people get the message? But I'm being picky, moving on...

 

I am, as useall bored. What a state of mind, people tell me it's my age but my birthdays in...11 days and there is no sign of change. Oh well for that, maybe it will fade...eventually. Thank the lord most of the soap opera's around here are ending. (It's a miracle) The only thing more miraculous than that would be if I stopped being lazy, fat chance. 11 days and counting people, Laters,

 

Gingie

No patience. None at all. I can't stand anything, of course  most of all my manipulative mother. But hey that's life at my age huh? I also can't stand all the secrets and drama going around. THERE IS WAY TO MUCH DRAMA PEOPLE!!! I just want to get back to my normal life, insulting my friends, calling B stupid, getting hit by B, you know the normal for me. Yes my birthday draws ever closer, so I must get all the evilness into this year before May 20th, not that I'm going to let another year change how I act, or think (when I think). Just another day in my all to dull life, I can't stand it ALL of it. That's why I'm here rather than working on my essay, better go finish that now, Laters.

 

                                      GINGIE

The answer is because I keep listening to it!! I mean duh! I know stupid huh? But at the moment my life is a tad bit of a mess, so please forgive any not too smart comment's I may be making. Nothing I can do is right. Also everyone seems to be having their own little soap opera's going, except me. I just watch TV for 12 hours straight because there is nothing better to do and I'm not allowed to go on the net. I'm at my brother's house to type this so my parents can't stop me. Love to right more but my brain died a few minutes ago. So until I can think of more to say, I will remain, sadly, GINGIE

Thanks to anyone who has given me advice lately. I know life is absolutely insane these days. I know I may have been bringing you all down screaming about the insane arguments in my life but thank god it's friday, which means Ghost Whisperer and Conviction! Yes I'm a tv adict, but then again welcome to the world. I don't really know where I'm going these days, skating by in school writing with every spare moment. This is just crazy, but I do have some good news (and I didn't just save a bunch of money on my car insurance) My birthday is in 15 days!! May 20th in case you were too lazy to compute that. As for how old I'll be, guess (for those who acctually know me, please don't spoil my fun). Until I can get another moment on the computer, GINGIE

Okay, as you may know 403_Soccer and I have been talking about this friend (L) that she has been mad at (see previous post's) but now we have come to an even larger disagreement. L has just ended it with her boyfriend because while L and him were dating he was dating another girl. This girl and L talked and L ended the reletionship. I say it was the boyfriends fault, who I will call J, but 403 believes it is L's fault. All this is true: L is in 10th grade, J is in 7th, J had a previous girlfriend when he asked L out, L was unaware of this when she said yes. Also 403 told L it was a bad ides, L was trusting of J and didn't believe the rumors, but they go to different schools. My beleif is that even if this reletionship wasn't the ideal it is still J's fault he had two girlfriends at the same time. No matter if L was too trusting there is no way she can be blamed for J's cheating ways. I'm not saying that J's a bad person, he seems nice, but we have uncovered a not so nice side. So people I ask for your unbiased opinions: Can L be blamed for J's infidelety and the bad reletionship or is J to blame? What I think is: Yes L ended it but it was pretty much her only option, she couldn't stick with someone who wasn't be honest. Oh and may I mention when L asked J the straight truth, before she ended it, he lied again. Please settle this dispute.

                                       Much thanks,

                                                       Gingie

iI don't know if it's possible to be any more bored than the moment. Trapped in this zoo pretending to be school, I can barely hear myself think, that is when I think. I don't know if anyone else has experienced this but it's like the world is just droning on in a boring monotone.  Also 403 is jst being kind of confusing at the moment but no different than normal. This is just a really insane day, substitutes much? It's another crazy day sneaking on "bad" sites when I'm "working".  To think I get good grades. My friend is totally obsessed with H.I.M. and on the computer next to me looking at shirts and stuff,. It doesn't get much more boring than this, but I could be wrong about this. Any intresting news out there?

                                      Sigh,

                                              Gingie

Problems, problems, problems, that's the name of the game. For anyone who's read 403_Soccer's blog here is my full response to the situation:

    I know both of these people and have a basiclly unbiased veiw of the whole thing, being a friend to each of them. See they both have problems, 403 and her friend who I will refer to as L here. L is having some serious issues with her boyfriend at the moment and is no doubt freaking out, 403 well cannot really figure out the problem and I would say going crazy. L just wants to make this right and get through and wants to go back to being friends. 403 has no idea of what she wants. In my non-proffesional opinon these two should stop worrying and go back to just being friends confideing in eachother because I believe that they need eachother's friendship. They need someone there for them and shouldn't let an argument get in the way.

                                            Insane as always,

                                                         GINGIE

Another all too lame day in the life of Gingie.Oh and yes I changed the title of my blog, I am embraceing the gingie side of me...anywayz moving on.

 

School-where children are forced to go, because adults can't think of another way to punish their offspring. Yes, thats it ladies and gentlemen (or anyone else to be politically correct) School is torture, to a certain extent and this is coming from a very good student, please don't tell the teachers. If only they knew that half the time I'm asleep in class but then agian aren't we all?? I survive each day by staring at the board behind their head while they drone on and on. Not that I'm saying all teachers are bad, just most. Another day, barely surviveing getting by on sugar and tormenting the younger students (sorry younger students). Join in with me and sleep with your eyes open. Well back to school and until tomorrow.

                                          Gingie

To sum up school in one word: TORTURE but I supose most of you know that. I'm absent, mind on vaction please don't knock. The people around me toil like they are doing something special or even worthwhile, it's not. When you think about it what is worthwhile eating, sleeping, drinking (water that is) but that only keeps you alive.... so over rated. Don't ask my brother, member of team substance abuse. People out there hear my plea: STOP TOILING AND DO SOMETHING INTERESTING!! Cause as useuall i'm god aweful bored, but who isn't. Now i beg you ask me something anything waking up this all to dormant brain. The monkeys dance and the people cry.

             alive, just barely,

                            GINGIE