It's so strange. I was thinking about it more today, and I think part of my response to this is one of discovery. For the first time really thinking about this event, how it related to the lives of those in the area, and to my own life. In April of 1986, I was 9 years old. My view of world events was limited by my own interest, and my ability to really understand those events. The term "nuclear meltdown" didn't have much real meaning to me, beyond the fact that it was very bad. As the website tells, information about this disaster was only fairly slowly leaked to the rest of the world, and though I heard about it in the days following those fateful explosions, vaguely remember seeing some news footage or photos of helicopters dumping something on some huge building that was on fire, by the time the full scope of the event was coming to light some months later, I was no longer directly interested. It wasn't about space exploration, and it was far away, and I didn't know that much about radiation poisoning. It became something simple, one of history's tourist attractions, something to read about briefly on a timeline, but I never gave it much more thought.
In the following years, as I grew older, more mature, had more schooling, the nature of the event became more clear and more interesting. I came to understand the physics and biology of what could or would happen during a nuclear meltdown, but during all my physics and biology classes, we never applied that knowledge to a real event, to Chernobyl and what happened there. I knew why it happened, perhaps how it happened, but still did not understand what really happened. That has all changed now. It isn't simple any more.
I am astonished by it all. I'm astonished that I could go through advanced high school physics and biology classes within 7 years of this event and still manage to know so little about it. I'm astonished that the deaths of so many people managed to escape even my 9 year old attention. I'm astonished that this even could have had so little impact on me, even at that age. Maybe there were political reasons for some of this. Maybe my age was a reason. Whatever the reasons may have been, I will not be able to get some of those images out of my mind for the rest of my life, and I will never want to forget what happened there.
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Goodbye Ruth & Betty, my beautiful grandmothers.
Betty Kuzara 1921 - April 5, 2008
Ruth Kellison 1925 - Dec 27, 2007